what am i doing typing this post at 3+am?!
guess what? my confirmation appraisal is coming up this month, as august marks my 6th month of working with the association.
and no prizes for guessing how i'm feeling: scared.
you might've guessed as well, i'm scared because i want to stay.
i shared this with a fellow colleague who's also new to the association, but she's got 1.5 years of working experience as a teaching assistant in another school, so i said she didn't need to worry while for me, i can't even teach any kid on my own T_T cos i'm usually in need of help! she said pretty comforting stuff that made me think. something like.. i need to chill out cos otherwise i'll burn out easily and everything'll be negative and i added: nothing would work out when that happens. and one more thing that she said~ its not easy teaching these kids, so there's an incubation period of 2 years or so before you can actually teach on your own. i was so relieved to hear that. that perhaps it is normal to feel new and inexperienced. and lastly, now that i'm thinking of it, she's starting to think of it too~ but seriously, i wasn't worried until the head said the words "kicked out". i don't like the sound of that. at all.
honestly i hope nobody overheard that at work, though i think surely someone must've since there were people standing outside the room and i have absolutely no idea what they were doing there. furthermore i can be pretty loud and high when exclaiming stuff.
anyway a 3rd kid is arriving on this Wednesday - doodoo's bday, so i hope that is good news. plus i'm on a Fundamentals of Autism course on that day till 9pm T_T~
and when Mon comes i'll see cuddly-boy again~ whee :)
PS doodoo said i can relax more now that he's back :) and that i don't have to be tensed up~ that was so nice to hear (or rather see, since it was via SMS) and i couldn't help but smile like a stupid dope at work when i saw that message. ahaha :X i can be such a nut at times~
bee at 3:32 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
but the more i feel as if i lack this kind of company now, the more i cherish it. honestly, absence seriously makes the heart grow fonder, really.
my only strength now away from work comes from peeps like my closest of close friends, doodoo, my family and my piano teacher.
i wouldn't ever think of crying to anyone else, if i ever did cry.
but then again i always find that there's always a good and bad side to everything. some of the experiences that are so difficult and hard to go through - well they toughen us up and make us who we are.. they develop us from the shallow people we once were into well, deeper thinkers.
i figured life is too short for regrets (if there was ever any consideration for having any at all) and i just wish i could see ah doo now so that i would feel less busy and yet less alone.
a sudden thought that came into mind: i have less than a year left to decide what i really ought to study for the sake of a having a bachelor's degree. (oh no?). this is an issue which i have been putting off for quite a while, being the procrastinator that i obviously still am.
and argh worrying about the arrival of online shipments is driving me up the wall. =/
its funny to see how one worry just simply leads to another doens't it? somehow my blog has become a Wall of Complaints kinda thing. its as if i've selfishly kept all my happy adventures and secrets to myself. :X because i find that i'm usually too engaged in them to share or write about them, and i'm not giving enough credit to the people who actually make these abby's-over-the-moon happenings happen. ahh i feel so sorry now.
plus i'm craving for sleep. having a body clock that automatically awakens at 645am is no joking matter. nite.
bee at 9:53 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
to have a picture taken of doodoo and i wearing a pair of OVERSIZED lens-less specs each. that's the kind of memoir i wanna look at and laugh when i'm toothless and loved at 80.
the best place to have that taken with an extremely high risk of dropping the specs and having the trees catch them for us: on the chairlift at Sentosa.
the more i think abt it, the more i think its exciting, looney, and cute.
bee at 10:33 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
teaching the 2.5 year old can be such a joy sometimes.
but the 3.5 year old is giving me hell - i call him a terror.
its so challenging to tackle his behaviour, i feel so stressed.. and i feel so scared of thursdays and fridays when they approach cos i know that's when i feel the most stressed.
he made me realise that its so difficult to be firm, yet un-fierce and fun at the same time. :(
apparently, his mother calls him an angel in school because when he throws a tantrum at home, he pinches her breasts.
will someone please save me? i dread thursdays and fridays.
oh thank god, the national day holiday is on a Thursday.
when doodoo's not with me (physicallY), i comfort myself by thinking of happy thoughts - the thought of flying to Japan.. staying there for a week and going to places where i wanna go.. free and easy. but then reality hits me, nobody really knows what sort of events may crop up next year (honestly, there's really such a thing known as "last minute" stuff which do happen), which could just put a stop to my Japan holiday plans. argh :(
for now i just want more jap bras, another huge domokun plushie, oversized specs, my yellow taxi bag, the "i'm not a plastic bag" bag which is such a rip-off, 135 mr men and lil miss plushies and counting.. and some ralph lauren stuff for doodoo~ this is like.. 30% of my shopping list.
to some extent, i think i'm crazy with the kind of stuff i spend on, and i'm already suffering from a lack of wardrobe space. i desperately need to clear some stuff to make way for new ones. but HOW? there's just way too many things! maybe i'm just deprived of a pedicure - i need to relax (As always).
Semester 2. Week 5. Half a week more to go! Catchin' Simpsons this Sattyday. whee!
btw i loved bumblebee from transformers (its just so 'cartoon'), and i think the transformers movie was so much better than the Harry Potter one. haha.
bee at 8:09 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
maybe that's all.. almost all the time. :X
perhaps i could use my tired arms as an excuse.. haha. been teaching the 2.5 year old boy yesterday and today and everytime the head walks in i start behaving like a headless nut - messing up all over the place, reacting very slowly, getting stuck here and there.. :X but the lil boy is so cute. i never realised lil kids could be that endearing to carry. and i bought his whiny-ness (teh) last afternoon, thinking he was sleepie.. but today was different. i insisted that he stay within the large group activity : music time! and he did. the head calls it a major breakthrough, and i can't help but feel happy about this little achievement. after all, this is the 1st time in 4 weeks that he has sat in for the entire music and movement lesson!! but my arms are aching now.. from constant carrying over 2 days.. X_X
honestly, this job is somewhat super challenging to me - to the extent that for the first time in the soon-to-be 20 years of my life, i'm actually scared of getting sacked for my lack of experience in handling these kids.
its just so different from childcare. in childcare u can prepare a lesson, and carry it out. you can already visualize and imagine the whole scenario of, for example, storytime and how u're gonna share the story. what u've got to handle on the spot is the behaviour, of misbehaviour :X haha. but i feel its different at where i work at. because right now i can't even imagine or visualize how exactly i am gonna present a task to a child, how to go about showing the kid how to do it (positions really matter! i learnt that today).. and these are just about the things that look so natural and easy to do.. but they're not - cos i overlooked them and got it all wrong today. its no longer just about teaching on the surface.. its about showing a kid how to go about doing a task and learning on his own, its about making sure that he learns.. in addition to managing his/her behaviour at the same time~ and its no longer just about making sure that the majority learns.
its difficult to explain it.. because 99% of what i learn is based on real life, practical situations. the knowledge can't be found in books, and to some extent i am really grateful for this opportunity to learn. i guess mom was right - i am being paid to learn.
i've also been talking to some poly friends. apparently, i realised that whether or not its study-time or work-time.. both can be equally stressful. at this point in time, i guess its comfortable to go back to studying, because ultimately the stress of being paid to perform to expectations and standards in front of intimidating real life situations is not there when u're studying (but there's the stress of a pile of homework yea? lol). but i can't imagine what study-life'll be like again, surviving on an allowance just like almost everybody else my age. haha. but we'll see. i still want to go back to school, but i just don't know how to quit my job.
in case anyone was wondering what's my latest craze, its little miss and mr men plushies and bag charms. oh puhlease, the teeshirts are way too common. and i can't help but wonder when i'm walking along the streets why someone who, at one glance, would make you think that she looks damn bossy, would actually really wear a "little miss bossy" teeshirt. X_X. that was exactly what i saw in town the other day. LOL. its so amazing. having to prove your impression of a person just by dropping your eyes a little lower down to look at what's on her teeshirt.
ok this sounds so bitchy. but yea. WHY WOULD ANYONE BE PROUD OF BEING BOSSY? i just don't get it. its probably just like how the assertive people would wonder why anyone would be proud of being shy.
bee at 9:55 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
i just can't help but think of the next LOOONG one in December.. and then the next one in June... (JAPAN!~!~!~) holidays are like rewards for slogging continuously for 10 whole weeks. i can't imagine working in some place with only 14 days or 21 days of annual leave X_X! but because my workplace follows the primary school holidays, i can't help but feel that i'm back at school again (like a schoolgoing kid):D! maybe that's how the other teachers feel too, that's why they look 10 years younger -.-
doodoo and i had so much fun at sentosa.. going down just to ride the luge. and its such a pity. due to time constraints and the threatening weather, we couldn't go on the water bicycles again~
anyway, mellypoo's back :D she surprised me with a call on Monday~ and luckily i saved her grandma's house no. so i knew immediately who that missed call was from haha~ it was so good to meet up with her again!! and she asked that not-surprising question again.. abt when i intend to get married -.- i wish i knew.
and on Monday, i just spent a whopping $95.90 at La Senza. actually, i quite like the number, but i don't like the way i'm regretting my purchases - because they just aren't as flattering as the bras i bought from the usual bra shoppe that brings in their stuff from Japan :( (except for this pinky lace-up front skirted panty with removable garter ties/straps whatever and some other bottoms, which i am so happy about) now i don't know why i bought those things from La Senza. was it cos the white eyelet set was featured in Maxim? or was it cos another item i bought, a corset, was for the sake of it being cheap and thinking that i may one day find myself with a real need for it? haha. though i think that it doesn't help to trim much at all so that's why i'm starting to regret everything =/ anyway this is so Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic - who always thinks that she's going to need an item in the future.. (but that need doesn't exactly exist in the future i suppose).
sometimes i get so worried about teaching alone that i feel like crying, just like today. because situations can get so intimidating - that i start to doubt myself of my abilities (if i have any). but somehow or rather, things turned out fine, with some support here and there. :D woohoo! that's what makes me feel like i'm over the moon (and tempt me to shop to celebrate).
i think that worries and troubles are so real, especially for a worrier like me. but perhaps that's what keeps me going, in some way or other. like how i think of the worst and when things turn out to be better than what i expected them to be, its a good thing isn't it? call it pessimism if you really must, but the joy and satisfaction that i get from worrying and then getting things done is just, great. its puzzling, yet amazing, that i should think of it this way. but when things really do get bad, i tell myself that tomorrow will always be better, because it could never be worse than what had already happened.
bee at 7:55 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
i finally cleared my jappie bra package.. whoo~ and guess what? i still want more. i bought my first ever purple bra (i still can't believe i did).. and it was cos the fit was pretty good :) it also had a very pretty bottom. got another one that reminds me of a piano.. black with white stripes, black lace and a keyhole at the front. the black lace part fits those pianos where people put those lacey lacey stuff on them. haha! not on mine though~ those are too frilly. it was so difficult deciding between those 2 cos it was fit vs design, so i got both in the end :X and the last one is an exotic piece, which i would like to keep the looks of it to myself :X
it feels good to be selfish sometimes, looking for stuff to buy for ME, and Me, and still me. but sometimes i do feel kinda guilty when i think back and reflect on the fact that i hadn't gotten much for mom or dad or my bro. point is, i don't know what to get for them. but i intend to give them a treat as soon as i can decide on the location, for i know mom would be happy to have a meal of course :) and i really should plan one, especially since i just got my bonus - though it isn't much :X but it felt nice to see my salary reach a peak for once though haha :D it crossed a pretty good mark. keywords here are "for once" in the past 20 years.
they've come up with a dress code for my workplace.. and it says NO Tees! which is kinda upsetting, cos i'm kinda classifying tees as almost everything and anything that's tee-shirt material. so where my work wardrobe is concerned, a couple of tees have already gone outta it and the status of their new home is currently pending since i hardly wear tees when i go out on weekends anymore (of course i'd wear dresses, i don't get to wear those on weekdays yea? but i find myself getting sick of dresses much more easily than tops X_X). well i figured it isn't just a couple of tees actually.. its more like.. quite a few :( and more are coming in from the sprees i joined months ago.
the weather is horrifying. and perhaps that's one of the things that makes me think of going to Japan like.. whenever i have the free time to do so. i've made a list of the places to visit when i'm in tokyo, and i'm not going there in winter (though i'd love to) because i won't be able to find clothes that suit Singapore's weather in japan's winter. i know because i've been there before.. and everything just looked so dowdy. the good thing abt going to cold places is that you get to wear sexy kickass boots though. haha :) sth that i'd never do in SG because imo, its just way too impractical. and people who do that. eww.. stinky boots.. i've aired my thoughts on this before in a previous post. so i don't want to touch on smelly topics again. anyway, i'm looking forward to going there in Spring, but i'm not sure if doodoo or i can find the time to do so :( we'll just have to wait and see what 2008 has in store for us then~
and i can't wait for my cousin Michele to come back to SG :) i've ordered a truckload of clothes through her.. and of all things she told her mom and her mom told her mom about my spending. X_X thankfully mummy's so understanding, and so willing to listen~ she knows that i didn't go overboard, as much as my cousin thinks i did. i really don't mean to complain, but it just so happens that i got reminded of her when i thought of "SHOPPING". i've been helping her out with some stuff too, but sometimes people just seem to forget and go "why do you need so many bras for?". well actually i don't. its just that signing a package gives me the excuse to get more and more. i did a count last night. 12 sets from the bra shoppe that brings in all the Japanese bras. and counting actually, considering there's other matching sets from elsewhere. oh and i feel so happy whenever i go home with those bras (though at the back of my mind i'm wondering if those buys were worthy ones). i'll sit myself down in front of the computer and start searching for their pictures from the Japanese site :) a reminder of my collection, which i hope to find a nice place to display (in the cupboard of course) so i can open up the doors and voila~ admire them, just like dresses.
honestly, will someone please tell me that i'm mad again?
i seriously think someone ought to build a brassiere wardrobe that comes with a set of suitably sized hangers. something that can store 20 exquisite sets or so and looks like a mini wooden house with a knobbed door that's as big as the house itself :) i would definitely buy that. and perhaps put up a sign on the front of it that says "Bee's Garden of Bras". BGB. how cute. i would paint flowers and butterflies and bees on the door with the little knob too, and bras and panties hanging on trees. or maybe.. i could get a lingerie tree. ah~ getting too carried away. guess i NEED to have my SUPPER or SLEEP!
toodles for now~
xoxo!
bee at 1:16 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
and no prizes for guessing how i'm feeling: scared.
you might've guessed as well, i'm scared because i want to stay.
i shared this with a fellow colleague who's also new to the association, but she's got 1.5 years of working experience as a teaching assistant in another school, so i said she didn't need to worry while for me, i can't even teach any kid on my own T_T cos i'm usually in need of help! she said pretty comforting stuff that made me think. something like.. i need to chill out cos otherwise i'll burn out easily and everything'll be negative and i added: nothing would work out when that happens. and one more thing that she said~ its not easy teaching these kids, so there's an incubation period of 2 years or so before you can actually teach on your own. i was so relieved to hear that. that perhaps it is normal to feel new and inexperienced. and lastly, now that i'm thinking of it, she's starting to think of it too~ but seriously, i wasn't worried until the head said the words "kicked out". i don't like the sound of that. at all.
honestly i hope nobody overheard that at work, though i think surely someone must've since there were people standing outside the room and i have absolutely no idea what they were doing there. furthermore i can be pretty loud and high when exclaiming stuff.
anyway a 3rd kid is arriving on this Wednesday - doodoo's bday, so i hope that is good news. plus i'm on a Fundamentals of Autism course on that day till 9pm T_T~
and when Mon comes i'll see cuddly-boy again~ whee :)
PS doodoo said i can relax more now that he's back :) and that i don't have to be tensed up~ that was so nice to hear (or rather see, since it was via SMS) and i couldn't help but smile like a stupid dope at work when i saw that message. ahaha :X i can be such a nut at times~
bee at 3:32 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
but the more i feel as if i lack this kind of company now, the more i cherish it. honestly, absence seriously makes the heart grow fonder, really.
my only strength now away from work comes from peeps like my closest of close friends, doodoo, my family and my piano teacher.
i wouldn't ever think of crying to anyone else, if i ever did cry.
but then again i always find that there's always a good and bad side to everything. some of the experiences that are so difficult and hard to go through - well they toughen us up and make us who we are.. they develop us from the shallow people we once were into well, deeper thinkers.
i figured life is too short for regrets (if there was ever any consideration for having any at all) and i just wish i could see ah doo now so that i would feel less busy and yet less alone.
a sudden thought that came into mind: i have less than a year left to decide what i really ought to study for the sake of a having a bachelor's degree. (oh no?). this is an issue which i have been putting off for quite a while, being the procrastinator that i obviously still am.
and argh worrying about the arrival of online shipments is driving me up the wall. =/
its funny to see how one worry just simply leads to another doens't it? somehow my blog has become a Wall of Complaints kinda thing. its as if i've selfishly kept all my happy adventures and secrets to myself. :X because i find that i'm usually too engaged in them to share or write about them, and i'm not giving enough credit to the people who actually make these abby's-over-the-moon happenings happen. ahh i feel so sorry now.
plus i'm craving for sleep. having a body clock that automatically awakens at 645am is no joking matter. nite.
bee at 9:53 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
to have a picture taken of doodoo and i wearing a pair of OVERSIZED lens-less specs each. that's the kind of memoir i wanna look at and laugh when i'm toothless and loved at 80.
the best place to have that taken with an extremely high risk of dropping the specs and having the trees catch them for us: on the chairlift at Sentosa.
the more i think abt it, the more i think its exciting, looney, and cute.
bee at 10:33 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
teaching the 2.5 year old can be such a joy sometimes.
but the 3.5 year old is giving me hell - i call him a terror.
its so challenging to tackle his behaviour, i feel so stressed.. and i feel so scared of thursdays and fridays when they approach cos i know that's when i feel the most stressed.
he made me realise that its so difficult to be firm, yet un-fierce and fun at the same time. :(
apparently, his mother calls him an angel in school because when he throws a tantrum at home, he pinches her breasts.
will someone please save me? i dread thursdays and fridays.
oh thank god, the national day holiday is on a Thursday.
when doodoo's not with me (physicallY), i comfort myself by thinking of happy thoughts - the thought of flying to Japan.. staying there for a week and going to places where i wanna go.. free and easy. but then reality hits me, nobody really knows what sort of events may crop up next year (honestly, there's really such a thing known as "last minute" stuff which do happen), which could just put a stop to my Japan holiday plans. argh :(
for now i just want more jap bras, another huge domokun plushie, oversized specs, my yellow taxi bag, the "i'm not a plastic bag" bag which is such a rip-off, 135 mr men and lil miss plushies and counting.. and some ralph lauren stuff for doodoo~ this is like.. 30% of my shopping list.
to some extent, i think i'm crazy with the kind of stuff i spend on, and i'm already suffering from a lack of wardrobe space. i desperately need to clear some stuff to make way for new ones. but HOW? there's just way too many things! maybe i'm just deprived of a pedicure - i need to relax (As always).
Semester 2. Week 5. Half a week more to go! Catchin' Simpsons this Sattyday. whee!
btw i loved bumblebee from transformers (its just so 'cartoon'), and i think the transformers movie was so much better than the Harry Potter one. haha.
bee at 8:09 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
maybe that's all.. almost all the time. :X
perhaps i could use my tired arms as an excuse.. haha. been teaching the 2.5 year old boy yesterday and today and everytime the head walks in i start behaving like a headless nut - messing up all over the place, reacting very slowly, getting stuck here and there.. :X but the lil boy is so cute. i never realised lil kids could be that endearing to carry. and i bought his whiny-ness (teh) last afternoon, thinking he was sleepie.. but today was different. i insisted that he stay within the large group activity : music time! and he did. the head calls it a major breakthrough, and i can't help but feel happy about this little achievement. after all, this is the 1st time in 4 weeks that he has sat in for the entire music and movement lesson!! but my arms are aching now.. from constant carrying over 2 days.. X_X
honestly, this job is somewhat super challenging to me - to the extent that for the first time in the soon-to-be 20 years of my life, i'm actually scared of getting sacked for my lack of experience in handling these kids.
its just so different from childcare. in childcare u can prepare a lesson, and carry it out. you can already visualize and imagine the whole scenario of, for example, storytime and how u're gonna share the story. what u've got to handle on the spot is the behaviour, of misbehaviour :X haha. but i feel its different at where i work at. because right now i can't even imagine or visualize how exactly i am gonna present a task to a child, how to go about showing the kid how to do it (positions really matter! i learnt that today).. and these are just about the things that look so natural and easy to do.. but they're not - cos i overlooked them and got it all wrong today. its no longer just about teaching on the surface.. its about showing a kid how to go about doing a task and learning on his own, its about making sure that he learns.. in addition to managing his/her behaviour at the same time~ and its no longer just about making sure that the majority learns.
its difficult to explain it.. because 99% of what i learn is based on real life, practical situations. the knowledge can't be found in books, and to some extent i am really grateful for this opportunity to learn. i guess mom was right - i am being paid to learn.
i've also been talking to some poly friends. apparently, i realised that whether or not its study-time or work-time.. both can be equally stressful. at this point in time, i guess its comfortable to go back to studying, because ultimately the stress of being paid to perform to expectations and standards in front of intimidating real life situations is not there when u're studying (but there's the stress of a pile of homework yea? lol). but i can't imagine what study-life'll be like again, surviving on an allowance just like almost everybody else my age. haha. but we'll see. i still want to go back to school, but i just don't know how to quit my job.
in case anyone was wondering what's my latest craze, its little miss and mr men plushies and bag charms. oh puhlease, the teeshirts are way too common. and i can't help but wonder when i'm walking along the streets why someone who, at one glance, would make you think that she looks damn bossy, would actually really wear a "little miss bossy" teeshirt. X_X. that was exactly what i saw in town the other day. LOL. its so amazing. having to prove your impression of a person just by dropping your eyes a little lower down to look at what's on her teeshirt.
ok this sounds so bitchy. but yea. WHY WOULD ANYONE BE PROUD OF BEING BOSSY? i just don't get it. its probably just like how the assertive people would wonder why anyone would be proud of being shy.
bee at 9:55 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
i just can't help but think of the next LOOONG one in December.. and then the next one in June... (JAPAN!~!~!~) holidays are like rewards for slogging continuously for 10 whole weeks. i can't imagine working in some place with only 14 days or 21 days of annual leave X_X! but because my workplace follows the primary school holidays, i can't help but feel that i'm back at school again (like a schoolgoing kid):D! maybe that's how the other teachers feel too, that's why they look 10 years younger -.-
doodoo and i had so much fun at sentosa.. going down just to ride the luge. and its such a pity. due to time constraints and the threatening weather, we couldn't go on the water bicycles again~
anyway, mellypoo's back :D she surprised me with a call on Monday~ and luckily i saved her grandma's house no. so i knew immediately who that missed call was from haha~ it was so good to meet up with her again!! and she asked that not-surprising question again.. abt when i intend to get married -.- i wish i knew.
and on Monday, i just spent a whopping $95.90 at La Senza. actually, i quite like the number, but i don't like the way i'm regretting my purchases - because they just aren't as flattering as the bras i bought from the usual bra shoppe that brings in their stuff from Japan :( (except for this pinky lace-up front skirted panty with removable garter ties/straps whatever and some other bottoms, which i am so happy about) now i don't know why i bought those things from La Senza. was it cos the white eyelet set was featured in Maxim? or was it cos another item i bought, a corset, was for the sake of it being cheap and thinking that i may one day find myself with a real need for it? haha. though i think that it doesn't help to trim much at all so that's why i'm starting to regret everything =/ anyway this is so Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic - who always thinks that she's going to need an item in the future.. (but that need doesn't exactly exist in the future i suppose).
sometimes i get so worried about teaching alone that i feel like crying, just like today. because situations can get so intimidating - that i start to doubt myself of my abilities (if i have any). but somehow or rather, things turned out fine, with some support here and there. :D woohoo! that's what makes me feel like i'm over the moon (and tempt me to shop to celebrate).
i think that worries and troubles are so real, especially for a worrier like me. but perhaps that's what keeps me going, in some way or other. like how i think of the worst and when things turn out to be better than what i expected them to be, its a good thing isn't it? call it pessimism if you really must, but the joy and satisfaction that i get from worrying and then getting things done is just, great. its puzzling, yet amazing, that i should think of it this way. but when things really do get bad, i tell myself that tomorrow will always be better, because it could never be worse than what had already happened.
bee at 7:55 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
i finally cleared my jappie bra package.. whoo~ and guess what? i still want more. i bought my first ever purple bra (i still can't believe i did).. and it was cos the fit was pretty good :) it also had a very pretty bottom. got another one that reminds me of a piano.. black with white stripes, black lace and a keyhole at the front. the black lace part fits those pianos where people put those lacey lacey stuff on them. haha! not on mine though~ those are too frilly. it was so difficult deciding between those 2 cos it was fit vs design, so i got both in the end :X and the last one is an exotic piece, which i would like to keep the looks of it to myself :X
it feels good to be selfish sometimes, looking for stuff to buy for ME, and Me, and still me. but sometimes i do feel kinda guilty when i think back and reflect on the fact that i hadn't gotten much for mom or dad or my bro. point is, i don't know what to get for them. but i intend to give them a treat as soon as i can decide on the location, for i know mom would be happy to have a meal of course :) and i really should plan one, especially since i just got my bonus - though it isn't much :X but it felt nice to see my salary reach a peak for once though haha :D it crossed a pretty good mark. keywords here are "for once" in the past 20 years.
they've come up with a dress code for my workplace.. and it says NO Tees! which is kinda upsetting, cos i'm kinda classifying tees as almost everything and anything that's tee-shirt material. so where my work wardrobe is concerned, a couple of tees have already gone outta it and the status of their new home is currently pending since i hardly wear tees when i go out on weekends anymore (of course i'd wear dresses, i don't get to wear those on weekdays yea? but i find myself getting sick of dresses much more easily than tops X_X). well i figured it isn't just a couple of tees actually.. its more like.. quite a few :( and more are coming in from the sprees i joined months ago.
the weather is horrifying. and perhaps that's one of the things that makes me think of going to Japan like.. whenever i have the free time to do so. i've made a list of the places to visit when i'm in tokyo, and i'm not going there in winter (though i'd love to) because i won't be able to find clothes that suit Singapore's weather in japan's winter. i know because i've been there before.. and everything just looked so dowdy. the good thing abt going to cold places is that you get to wear sexy kickass boots though. haha :) sth that i'd never do in SG because imo, its just way too impractical. and people who do that. eww.. stinky boots.. i've aired my thoughts on this before in a previous post. so i don't want to touch on smelly topics again. anyway, i'm looking forward to going there in Spring, but i'm not sure if doodoo or i can find the time to do so :( we'll just have to wait and see what 2008 has in store for us then~
and i can't wait for my cousin Michele to come back to SG :) i've ordered a truckload of clothes through her.. and of all things she told her mom and her mom told her mom about my spending. X_X thankfully mummy's so understanding, and so willing to listen~ she knows that i didn't go overboard, as much as my cousin thinks i did. i really don't mean to complain, but it just so happens that i got reminded of her when i thought of "SHOPPING". i've been helping her out with some stuff too, but sometimes people just seem to forget and go "why do you need so many bras for?". well actually i don't. its just that signing a package gives me the excuse to get more and more. i did a count last night. 12 sets from the bra shoppe that brings in all the Japanese bras. and counting actually, considering there's other matching sets from elsewhere. oh and i feel so happy whenever i go home with those bras (though at the back of my mind i'm wondering if those buys were worthy ones). i'll sit myself down in front of the computer and start searching for their pictures from the Japanese site :) a reminder of my collection, which i hope to find a nice place to display (in the cupboard of course) so i can open up the doors and voila~ admire them, just like dresses.
honestly, will someone please tell me that i'm mad again?
i seriously think someone ought to build a brassiere wardrobe that comes with a set of suitably sized hangers. something that can store 20 exquisite sets or so and looks like a mini wooden house with a knobbed door that's as big as the house itself :) i would definitely buy that. and perhaps put up a sign on the front of it that says "Bee's Garden of Bras". BGB. how cute. i would paint flowers and butterflies and bees on the door with the little knob too, and bras and panties hanging on trees. or maybe.. i could get a lingerie tree. ah~ getting too carried away. guess i NEED to have my SUPPER or SLEEP!
toodles for now~
xoxo!
bee at 1:16 AM
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