title? what title!? the content is enough~
it is confirmed.. i will be going back to school in june.. and while i'm feeling insecure about making new friends (yes i am that anti-social) because everyone's from the same cohort and they already know each other (oh bother), i am not looking forward to the english writing classes as well (because of what these classes entail: 4-hour lectures which require me to write endlessly) and i certainly do not believe how these lessons, which are all cramped into a month, can help to improve my standard of english. perhaps i will be enlightened. and well, i'm the sort who strongly believes that having friends, and good friends will help tide me through those boohoo blahblah time-to-doze-but-i-can't situations.
i was also told that the trip to boston may be shortened for this 2nd batch of students. the first batch of students, are going for 5 weeks and that duration will be assessed to see if it really is suitable and necessary for the 2nd batch. boohoo. the up side is i'll get to be in boston for an extra week if it is 5 weeks long, but the downside is i'll miss home for an extra week :(
ahh i guess i should just cross the bridge when i get to it and i should stop thinking about all of these insecurities that i have. insecurities will come wherever i go, and having an extra opportunity to battle these simply means more practice!
well anyway, i am 3 weeks away from meeting up with my friends and i can hardly wait. there's just so much of catching up (and shopping) to do!!
btw i can't help but mention this: i'm rather upset that my supposed 9th and 10th car bags in a gorgeous crumpled pink and green are out of stock :( i am SO SO SO disappointed. T_T!~ why does this have to serve as a reminder that i can't always get what i want?
bee at 10:09 PM
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and i've just received notice from wheelock earlier this week about the likelihood of me getting in for their 2nd intake in NP :D wahahaha~! g00t news!
what happened was on monday night i couldn't sleep from 3-5am because i was brooding about not getting into wheelock and about whether or not i should've asked them earlier on if having gotten in last year would be something they'd consider for next year's intake. so in the morning at 7am before i went to work, i emailed the relevant peeps about it, and they considered it as me showing continued interest in the programme, so the guy i emailed contacted some people on top and i'm now the next on the waiting list.
so i had to submit my resignation on wednesday :( last day of work on the 22nd, school starts officially on the 23rd (though we musn't forget those weekly english writing classes T_T!). well anyway, the head of centre's currently holding on to my resignation until i receive a confirmation or the enrolment package from the uni. that's really nice T_T~~~ i am teaching the 3 cutest kids and i don't know how to tell them, or their parents that i'm leaving (if i really am). i think that's the hardest part - i don't owe them a living, but i feel responsible for some part of their kid's education even though eventually everyone copes. usually the school doesn't change the teachers of newly enrolled kids for a year to a year and a half.. to help them to get settled etc. o well. the head of C said it's probably better for me in the long run.. and i guess this is something i want and have to do this year. He has heard my prayers and hopes and wishes.. which i prayed and hoped and wished really hard for what I wanted (just that one thing) to come true and it did, while I had silently in the back of my heart thought of the possibility that maybe, yes maybe, something last minute would happen (to my benefit).
anyway even if it wasn't meant to be, it just means there's something else i have to do. as long as time spent on whatever's not wasted, i'm glad.
i was reading this article some time ago (from one of the sections in the straits times), and it said that for a job to be fufilling, an employee has to know that what he or she does has an impact on another person in some way or other. and i think that's so true. that line answered my question on Why do i travel all the way to the far east end of Singapore every morning admist the crowd of other people who do too? on some days there is dread, on other days i'm just feeling neutral, seeing it as something i have to do or something i do every other day. but i realise that at the end of the day, it's always different from the start because it is at the end that i feel somewhat happy, fufilled, and it feels like i've done something good - which is to help someone else improve, help that someone to learn while having fun, while that someone does the same for me. Everyday is different, and that's what scares me most in the morning, the unpredictability (so ASD) but I realised through time that every single day is a different pebble which forms the path, our journey and so no two days can be totally the same - it would be boring then.
anyway, dim sum later with my family, and dimsum tomorrow at shang-ri-la's shang palace with doodoo. all this while i have not totally recovered my voice, but still i'm feeling woohoo about it! :D weekends are lovely. saturdays especially, because sundays are when i have pre-monday-blues. haha!
bee at 9:43 AM
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so i tried to do some searching, and oh god - it's all boho-madness everywhere! the silk, chiffon, asolutely light-weight with subtle floral prints kind of maxi dress is apparently my type.. and the tube boho kind in the dullest of colours (with floral prints throughout the entire dress) simply makes the dress look like it was made out of rags. (i can understand that there are people who adore the rugged look and there's nothing wrong with wearing what you like but there really isn't any point in forking out a single cent to buy rags when you can get them at home).
anyway, it's quite saddening really. people think that maxi dresses aren't suited for asians.. but hello? don't tell me asians don't wear long dresses! i bet we do.. so there's no excuse for rejecting the maxi style (unless you've got yourself one with a balloon cut - but i haven't seen anything of that sort around yet) and the only problem i find, is finding maxi dresses that aren't mature-looking. :X i'm not too big a fan of prints, graphic prints, abstract prints, whatever and it just so happens that those i've found that have a suitable, no-need-to-alter-at-all length, have fugly colours like black and grey with swirls of yellow. which is such a pity because everything else about the dress is a perfect, flattering fit. X_X
well, i guess my search continues.
bee at 8:42 AM
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anyway, the nubra is just extremely amazing. it's not just totally - it's extremely! you can control the amount of cleavage you want, and oh goodness.. despite peeling it off and reapplying it several times (i wore it for the first time today!), it just sticks on fine and makes me feel so safe. bearing in mind this is something that's backless and strapless (at the same time, light in weight too), the last thing you would expect to feel is secure. but w00t - i am surprised, and simply very happy with it - to the extent that i told Ailay i feel that every girl should own at least one in her entire lifetime.
OMG i am in love with this wonderful invention and i think this is the new thing that's gonna make the jap bra craze go away. XD! how could anyone not love something which is free of straps and yet full of security?
bee at 10:13 PM
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then all of us staff got onto a bouncer.. those inflatable thingies.. X_X! we couldn't balance because it was flooded with like 20+ teachers, with half of them sitting at the front. IMBALANCE!! omg we had peeps jumping up and down while others were on their backs trying to get up. it was hilarious.. !~ and the best part is, all of this was going on during a photo taking session, though thankfully not a formal one :X
hmm if only i could get my dose of face/body/hand painting everyday ^^
bee at 6:19 AM
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i cannot seem to help but think of how we adults (ok i'm not one yet, but almost) seem to tell children to do the things that we hardly ever do. it's like not practicing what you preach.
for example, when we're mad and we say hurtful things to each other, why is it so? why are adults just as impulsive sometimes and we end up not giving each other that 'cool-down' period of calming before we actually talk things out in a more amicable manner? on the other hand, when we're with kids, we do make an effort to give them that calm-down period before we actually talk to them, because we know that when a person is angry, nothing good or senseful will go in. and therefore it's not surprising when kids grow up into adults without learning about cooling down before talking to someone, or waiting for that someone to calm down before approaching him/her again. because they learn from the adults they trust and model after them - the adults who are seen without giving each other grace.
what about those adults who do not give other adults grace but give children grace because they're children? well there's the inconsistency.. and when one's inconsistent, obviously it's a 50-50 situation so kids may just pick up on either one of the 2: giving others grace, or not.
i think that only when consistency is reached, when we practice among ourselves what we practice with our children, would they learn that perhaps, all of that is the way to go.
well of course, consistency is one big battle which we ourselves, especially when in anger, are trying to hard to win, because sometimes it's like playing a mind game with oneself.
bee at 1:07 AM
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ralph lauren pleated mini polo dresses and strawberry dessert rings from japan.
can't stop thinking about them, xoxoing them, and i can't wait for them to arrive.
the only problem for the rings was that my $$ reached the merchant in an UNBELIEVABLY cut-up state and it would take her ages to get it exchanged for a new one at the national bank zzz because she doesn't live near it. oh gawd. this means MORE WAITING T_T!~ but i believe the wait is worth it. imagine - a strawberry and a biscuit on whipped cream on your finger.. ooh..!!!
still, it's better getting stuff on your own than relying on sprees that take 2 months sometimes. at least you know what the actual bank exchange rates are for credit card transactions and not get charged something that's off and obviously higher than what it's supposed to be.
actually maybe i'm mad about one more thing: chanel bow bags? haha~
i'm feeling candy at 2:29am right now.. whatever candy means.
i think it means candy pink, green and bloo! woohoo! i'm going to shop for stuff in all those gorgeous colours. YUM.
bee at 2:11 AM
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i was also told that the trip to boston may be shortened for this 2nd batch of students. the first batch of students, are going for 5 weeks and that duration will be assessed to see if it really is suitable and necessary for the 2nd batch. boohoo. the up side is i'll get to be in boston for an extra week if it is 5 weeks long, but the downside is i'll miss home for an extra week :(
ahh i guess i should just cross the bridge when i get to it and i should stop thinking about all of these insecurities that i have. insecurities will come wherever i go, and having an extra opportunity to battle these simply means more practice!
well anyway, i am 3 weeks away from meeting up with my friends and i can hardly wait. there's just so much of catching up (and shopping) to do!!
btw i can't help but mention this: i'm rather upset that my supposed 9th and 10th car bags in a gorgeous crumpled pink and green are out of stock :( i am SO SO SO disappointed. T_T!~ why does this have to serve as a reminder that i can't always get what i want?
bee at 10:09 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
and i've just received notice from wheelock earlier this week about the likelihood of me getting in for their 2nd intake in NP :D wahahaha~! g00t news!
what happened was on monday night i couldn't sleep from 3-5am because i was brooding about not getting into wheelock and about whether or not i should've asked them earlier on if having gotten in last year would be something they'd consider for next year's intake. so in the morning at 7am before i went to work, i emailed the relevant peeps about it, and they considered it as me showing continued interest in the programme, so the guy i emailed contacted some people on top and i'm now the next on the waiting list.
so i had to submit my resignation on wednesday :( last day of work on the 22nd, school starts officially on the 23rd (though we musn't forget those weekly english writing classes T_T!). well anyway, the head of centre's currently holding on to my resignation until i receive a confirmation or the enrolment package from the uni. that's really nice T_T~~~ i am teaching the 3 cutest kids and i don't know how to tell them, or their parents that i'm leaving (if i really am). i think that's the hardest part - i don't owe them a living, but i feel responsible for some part of their kid's education even though eventually everyone copes. usually the school doesn't change the teachers of newly enrolled kids for a year to a year and a half.. to help them to get settled etc. o well. the head of C said it's probably better for me in the long run.. and i guess this is something i want and have to do this year. He has heard my prayers and hopes and wishes.. which i prayed and hoped and wished really hard for what I wanted (just that one thing) to come true and it did, while I had silently in the back of my heart thought of the possibility that maybe, yes maybe, something last minute would happen (to my benefit).
anyway even if it wasn't meant to be, it just means there's something else i have to do. as long as time spent on whatever's not wasted, i'm glad.
i was reading this article some time ago (from one of the sections in the straits times), and it said that for a job to be fufilling, an employee has to know that what he or she does has an impact on another person in some way or other. and i think that's so true. that line answered my question on Why do i travel all the way to the far east end of Singapore every morning admist the crowd of other people who do too? on some days there is dread, on other days i'm just feeling neutral, seeing it as something i have to do or something i do every other day. but i realise that at the end of the day, it's always different from the start because it is at the end that i feel somewhat happy, fufilled, and it feels like i've done something good - which is to help someone else improve, help that someone to learn while having fun, while that someone does the same for me. Everyday is different, and that's what scares me most in the morning, the unpredictability (so ASD) but I realised through time that every single day is a different pebble which forms the path, our journey and so no two days can be totally the same - it would be boring then.
anyway, dim sum later with my family, and dimsum tomorrow at shang-ri-la's shang palace with doodoo. all this while i have not totally recovered my voice, but still i'm feeling woohoo about it! :D weekends are lovely. saturdays especially, because sundays are when i have pre-monday-blues. haha!
bee at 9:43 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
so i tried to do some searching, and oh god - it's all boho-madness everywhere! the silk, chiffon, asolutely light-weight with subtle floral prints kind of maxi dress is apparently my type.. and the tube boho kind in the dullest of colours (with floral prints throughout the entire dress) simply makes the dress look like it was made out of rags. (i can understand that there are people who adore the rugged look and there's nothing wrong with wearing what you like but there really isn't any point in forking out a single cent to buy rags when you can get them at home).
anyway, it's quite saddening really. people think that maxi dresses aren't suited for asians.. but hello? don't tell me asians don't wear long dresses! i bet we do.. so there's no excuse for rejecting the maxi style (unless you've got yourself one with a balloon cut - but i haven't seen anything of that sort around yet) and the only problem i find, is finding maxi dresses that aren't mature-looking. :X i'm not too big a fan of prints, graphic prints, abstract prints, whatever and it just so happens that those i've found that have a suitable, no-need-to-alter-at-all length, have fugly colours like black and grey with swirls of yellow. which is such a pity because everything else about the dress is a perfect, flattering fit. X_X
well, i guess my search continues.
bee at 8:42 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
anyway, the nubra is just extremely amazing. it's not just totally - it's extremely! you can control the amount of cleavage you want, and oh goodness.. despite peeling it off and reapplying it several times (i wore it for the first time today!), it just sticks on fine and makes me feel so safe. bearing in mind this is something that's backless and strapless (at the same time, light in weight too), the last thing you would expect to feel is secure. but w00t - i am surprised, and simply very happy with it - to the extent that i told Ailay i feel that every girl should own at least one in her entire lifetime.
OMG i am in love with this wonderful invention and i think this is the new thing that's gonna make the jap bra craze go away. XD! how could anyone not love something which is free of straps and yet full of security?
bee at 10:13 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
face painting is therapeutic i was at the face painting station painting stars, apples and thomas trains for the kids and parents who came for an event at work yesterday :X it's rather fun and it's my first time doing the painting for peeps i teach and peeps whom i don't know too. i think some of the kids liked the feeling of getting painted on (i like it too! i don't know why but there's this same pampering feeling that i get when i'm going for a haircut :X), while others liked me to use the soft brush, but would withdraw when i use the one with the stiffer bristles :X i heard that one of my own students found it too ticklish haha!~ some sat there and allowed me to paint on both their hands and faces and surprised their parents, who never thought they could sit there for more than 5 minutes to get a paint job done~
then all of us staff got onto a bouncer.. those inflatable thingies.. X_X! we couldn't balance because it was flooded with like 20+ teachers, with half of them sitting at the front. IMBALANCE!! omg we had peeps jumping up and down while others were on their backs trying to get up. it was hilarious.. !~ and the best part is, all of this was going on during a photo taking session, though thankfully not a formal one :X
hmm if only i could get my dose of face/body/hand painting everyday ^^
bee at 6:19 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
i cannot seem to help but think of how we adults (ok i'm not one yet, but almost) seem to tell children to do the things that we hardly ever do. it's like not practicing what you preach.
for example, when we're mad and we say hurtful things to each other, why is it so? why are adults just as impulsive sometimes and we end up not giving each other that 'cool-down' period of calming before we actually talk things out in a more amicable manner? on the other hand, when we're with kids, we do make an effort to give them that calm-down period before we actually talk to them, because we know that when a person is angry, nothing good or senseful will go in. and therefore it's not surprising when kids grow up into adults without learning about cooling down before talking to someone, or waiting for that someone to calm down before approaching him/her again. because they learn from the adults they trust and model after them - the adults who are seen without giving each other grace.
what about those adults who do not give other adults grace but give children grace because they're children? well there's the inconsistency.. and when one's inconsistent, obviously it's a 50-50 situation so kids may just pick up on either one of the 2: giving others grace, or not.
i think that only when consistency is reached, when we practice among ourselves what we practice with our children, would they learn that perhaps, all of that is the way to go.
well of course, consistency is one big battle which we ourselves, especially when in anger, are trying to hard to win, because sometimes it's like playing a mind game with oneself.
bee at 1:07 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
ralph lauren pleated mini polo dresses and strawberry dessert rings from japan.
can't stop thinking about them, xoxoing them, and i can't wait for them to arrive.
the only problem for the rings was that my $$ reached the merchant in an UNBELIEVABLY cut-up state and it would take her ages to get it exchanged for a new one at the national bank zzz because she doesn't live near it. oh gawd. this means MORE WAITING T_T!~ but i believe the wait is worth it. imagine - a strawberry and a biscuit on whipped cream on your finger.. ooh..!!!
still, it's better getting stuff on your own than relying on sprees that take 2 months sometimes. at least you know what the actual bank exchange rates are for credit card transactions and not get charged something that's off and obviously higher than what it's supposed to be.
actually maybe i'm mad about one more thing: chanel bow bags? haha~
i'm feeling candy at 2:29am right now.. whatever candy means.
i think it means candy pink, green and bloo! woohoo! i'm going to shop for stuff in all those gorgeous colours. YUM.
bee at 2:11 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
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