eyelashesssss~!!
i did my eyelashes yesterday haha. i went for an eyelash extension, and i can't tell if there's these 2 strands of lashes that look so thick and stuck to my eyelid instead of on my real lashes. i was desperately looking very hard because my left eye looked so much smaller than my right so i guessed sth was wrong! well anyway i scratched my eyelid and saw 2 strands of lashes that looked like falsies but were stuck onto my eyelid. so i tried to pluck them out but it hurt like mad.. and afterwards i felt so worried about them and at the same time worried about how i might've made my eyelid saggy due to the pulling or how my left eye may have appeared to be smaller than the right because it is saggy!!!
but i always had one eye smaller than the other.. so it isn't really a biggie. my lashes are equally curled up in the same angle, so i shouldn't be worrying. now i am just guilty of the pulling because those 2 strands didn't drop off, but are now no longer on my eyelid but i can't tell where. they're admist the other lashes as i saw them sticking out this morning.. but beacuse i can't see their "roots", i can't do anything. well what do i intend to do anyway? it hurts to pull it off. still i don't know why i keep fiddling with my eyelids, pulling them up to see that it's all ok, and so now i wonder if that pulling will loosen my muscles.
haha. anyhow, they're still pretty :) so that's okay!
bee at 10:32 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
anyway, doo felt that the houses were going to collapse any moment. when we opened the doors of one of the shops, you could hear creaks that weren't coming from the door itself, but from the walls haha. and it so happened that there was a catch line on the front page of the newpaper which quoted a father from one of the quake-stricken parts of China as saying sth like this: "quake didn't kill my daughter. school did". so i suppose if it ever happens in haji, it'll be "quake didn't kill my gf. the shop did". :X but thankfully, sg's in a quake-free zone, though we should never take this safety forgranted. we still are able to feel tremors when other countries closeby experience a quake, so we'll never know when it'll be serious enough to actually give us a real shake, though i'm not saying we should be worrying day and night about this as well.
speaking of quakes.. i hardly dare to read the news of all the devastation from the quake + cyclone that's going on. i want to donate clothes, but there's word going round that the collection-of-clothing place at peninsula plaza's received a response that's so overwhelming that they had to stop accepting clothing (w00t?).
back to haji.. i came across this shop with a pair of satin red pumps that caught my eye. while i was wondering if that's the only piece left.. my eyes wandered and caught sight of an entire glass shelf of shoes. :X one of which was a quirky twist to aladdin-style shoes. it was a flat pair, mary-jane style with a single, silver strap that goes from thick-to-thin, left-to-right. it's one that's looks as though it is made of soft metallic cracked leather, and remains very sturdy despite the outershell feel of softness. i checked its size and woohoo, it's a 39! i tried it on (for some reason it looked smaller than a 39) and i realised it's actually a little too big, but the maryjane strap saves the day! i immediately went to the counter and reserved it before others came into the shop heheh :X i told the staff i wanted it without finding out the price first, so i'm glad it didn't cost me a bomb. the most special thing i find about these shoes is its shape. while it is entirely plain from toe to heel, (i don't suppose a metallic-look under light would count), big-feet people like me can never wear pointy toes (actually can, i tried it on at bugis the other day but they didn't look good enough to impress me) and so this one, has the point to the side, where your biggest toe is. so it's sorta like the shoe follows the shape of our toes (from tallest to shortest). SO CUTE! however, when i reached home and re-modelled it, i realised the point isn't obvious when worn and viewed from opposite perspective, and instead makes my feet look bigger than they already are (the usual thing to expect when buying pointy shit for big feet), and all of a sudden its too plain for my liking with no specific detail. this has got to be the plainest pair of shoes i've ever purchased! while it seems that i was going to write this off as an impulse buy, i decided its a keeper. who knows when i'm going to need green shoes? or actually, i simply love the shade of green so much that i want to keep it. furthermore, it's comfy and spacious (mayb that explains why it makes my feet look big!) and one day, perhaps i'll have shoes of every colour (except for a couple of disliked ones). while green has never been on my list, yellow has always been and i am still looking out for a nice yellow pair :( some yellow ones look so cheap, too plain and god knows what.
ahh another good find at haji lane was a maxi dress. because it's made of raw cotton, i'd say it is a very casual floral dress - nothing like the foley & corrina inspired one from F21 which i already have. however, i am looking for something casual because i can't bear to wear that silk one out :X i'm only hesitating because one of the dresses i spotted at the shop was selling online at $33.. and it retails for $50 at the shop. thus i'm worried i'll see online shops sprouting up with maxi dress collections and with the same design popping up. they've only got 3 pcs for that design in the shop.. so that's not too bad (in terms of the likelihood of me seeing someone wearing the same thing, and chances of it going OOS by Tuesday). i'm not exactly a fan of florals, because i think sometimes they look ah-ma when unmodelled, but i seem to have a different view of that when florals are placed on a white/cream/black base. take my hurs suitcase for example (i LOVE it!!!).
well anyway. i ended up getting the raw cotton maxi with hotpink and white large florals + green pointy leaves at a hefty price (hefty because i saw it selling for cheaps somewhere else) but i guess it's always safer to pay more for something you can try on, especially something with prints. because if you get a dress with prints that happen to be stitched at positions where you least want them to be, it's horrid. my bro said it looks mature.. (which brings me back to my initial thought of it being AH MA) but i think that with my current short fringe hair, it balances out to make me look my age. PLUS.. i've been looking for a really casual maxi anyway, so this fits my description (except that this one turned out to be black, so not spring, but the garden florals save the day). there were silky satin ones as well, but what's the point of getting a casual spring-summer dress that's in the same material as a formal one? if one does, one might as well wear an evening gown out. why bother about specially getting a maxi that's supposed to be casual enough to bring you from shopping to tea time and not wedding dinner time?
i have plans for more maxis. this is quite obvious, as the title of the post suggests. doo asked me why i'm following this 'trend' since i recognise it as a trend by telling him it's moving so slowly in ever-so-slow Singapore (in a fashion/retail sense) possibly due to height issues, and it's simply because i think it's fun to be decked out in something different from what i usually wear out, bearing in mind it feels somewhat different from wearing mini dresses, and i certainly think it's something that's less fuss, more oomph. =D muahahhaa.. the kinda thing i xoxo.
bee at 6:19 AM
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x made it known to the parents of the children whom i'm teaching that i'm leaving at the end of june.
x paid $44 for a horrid haircut.
x am absolutely mad about hunting for maxi dresses.
what i thought was so difficult to do turned out to be easier than i thought. i'm referring to point number one: telling the peeps that i'm leaving.
and the responses i got were surprising :X while overall the responses expressed their dismay, they also included bits of "it's good to study while you have no commitments" and "it's better to study before you get married". and in one conversation with a parent, she repeatedly asked me to defer for a year and asked the head of centre to ask me to defer as well because she felt her child has been making steady progress with me, and when she came back the next day, she jokingly said she'll kill me. but nevertheless, she still wished me all the best, while commenting as well that next week would be my last teaching week T_T. haha. i feel so appreciated. another went "harrrrrrrrrr" and said that we should keep in touch, citing the possibility of me becoming her home intervention teacher, which i felt was a service her son didn't need. before the session ended, she took a picture of her child + me together. how nice! one other parent whose child has a resistance to touch from others (before she gets to know you well enough to be termed as a "familiar person") was worried about how her child would cope as she said her child was already close to me. well i guess it is good to let the kids experience a change and see how they learn to cope with it. the head of our centre as well as myself had to assure the parents that the next teacher would be an experienced one and that the education of their child would not be compromised in any way.
suddenly i have a renewed passion for special needs. :X but of course i'm still keeping my options open, which was precisely why i had chosen not to get bonded at all.
well, there's just one more teaching week to go. i wonder what this goodbye would be like and for some reason i'm not exactly looking forward to it because i can't believe that my colleagues and i have reached the last teaching week of Semester 1, 2008. and i'm getting rather worried too because it's almost the end of the teaching term but my singing voice has not fully recovered. i am still unable to sing out certain notes, and it irks me because i can't sing my favourite songs while listening to my mp3s!! i get so mad i end up switching off my music player. well i guess for now i'll just think about what i'm looking forward to tomorrow: seeing doodoo, shopping and eating!
bee at 7:09 PM
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thankfully the staff were extremely courteous and really tried to make up for their mistake. we really would've stayed to eat if we had the time! doo filled up the feedback form which came with the bill, and i was glad that he did (so i could eat hehe). and while he was doing so, i felt so happy because i felt that he had matured (heh not in every way cos there's bits of him that stay the same :X) and that he somehow or rather has a pretty cool way of handling stuff when i'm all upset and panicky.
for example, there was one day when i wanted to collect a parcel from the post office. i had forgotten that they close earlier on weekends, so by the time i got there, there were only like 2 of the staff inside who were walking around in the dimmed post office and who had absolutely no eye contact with us at all. i was really looking forward to my box of scallops from aji ichiban which i had specially and expensively imported, and thus i was extremely disappointed and negative at that point in time. X_X i felt they wouldn't make any exception to help us with it and was seriously going to leave and cry in my heart. haha. doo however, managed to get the attention of an auntie :X and he explained to her that we couldn't have made it any earlier because we rushed down the moment he could book out :X (well he does have the hair of a fresh army boy). with his calm and cool explanation, the auntie helped us to get our parcel!~!~ OMG i couldn't believe it and i was so happieeeeee!~!~ about the parcel and about the way in which doodoo helped me to manage the situation :X whee! i simply had such a lovely feeling after that..
well it looks like i'm back to missing doo for another 5 days (and i'll be counting down again).. before i get to see him on friday night T_T~ for now i probably just have to look at the strawberry chocolate notebook he bought for me which i like very very much and which was made to look as though someone had taken a bite off that gorgeous baby pink chocolate bar and of course think of him all the time till i fall asleep. anyway, a booking has been made for the Singapore Flyer so we'll be going up to see the lights! and hopefully have dinner at popeyes' before that heehehhe.. i love their cheesecake bites and we've been going there for lunch once every two weeks since a month ago or something! :D
bee at 11:46 PM
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please don't get me wrong - i am terrifically happy that i've gotten into it and still am actually (everytime someone asks me about the degree i start smiling like a mad dope), and in fact i was looking forward to it very much until my timetable was released. :X there's just some things in there which took me an entire day to come to terms with, because i finally managed to convince myself that nothing can be done about it and that well, there definitely is a reason why some things are in place. however, just this evening, i received an email from one of the students who are going to be in my cohort, who seemed to be feeling the way i am feeling, or at least almost, because i am surprised at how strong her feelings are, and while i'm unable to match up to their strength, i can feel that she is indeed disturbed by the outcome of some news. i am so not alone, i suppose, in this world where a fully contented person who remains in that state forever is such a rare find, and so at the end of the day it probably is all about how we accept others, and hopefully those others would accept us in the same way in which we accept them. i believe that's how we keep going.
also, now that i know that i know nobody in the entire cohort, i am kinda worried about my antisocialness haha. it's a rather weird feeling to be excited about new things to come and yet be worried about the unpredictability of it all. doo says (in his SMS typed miles away) that perhaps i should just go to school to have fun.
yeah and i really think i should. a huge percentage (actually it's 100%) of my stress is caused by worrying over things that have yet to happen. i just keep providing myself with endless worst-case scenarios! jiahui gave some insight into the kind of activities i can expect to participate in during lessons (and so i imagined myself in them haha), and OMG one'd really need creativity to carry those out. i haven't been exercising my creativity for over a year now, because i've just been desperately trying to learn from others about the best ways and more ways in which i can help the children i'm working with. picking up knowledge from others is useful, but exercising your creativity is another thing altogether which sometimes i feel, requires one to go against the odds, to move away from what's the norm and what we usually do or see everyday. sad to say, that i've spent most of my time trying to learn to do what i usually see others doing and the only thing about my individuality that i've kept sane is my work dressing of low jeans and long tops plus my outershell-shy nature.
well, nvm about all that for now. before i start all the theorised stuff again, i have some time to enjoy myself during the coming june "hols". :) some of the events (from now till the end of my freedom) on my mind are:
- a colleague's getting married so what exactly to wear? i want to dress up in sth that's not obiang but yet conservative and appropriate.
- meetups with several friends, i have like at least 4 meetups on my list now!
- hopefully a lash extension ;)
- pedicures (WOOHOO i can pedi like mad for the next 2 years!)
- meeting doodoo not just on weekends but on weekdays too
- a visit to the dentist
- and also, a to-do-or-not-to-do perm. i've done the one-day kind before and it looks totally fab when the curls start wearing off into waves. =) it's not just totally fab, i think it's gorgeous hair to have like every single day of the week and every week of the month. =)
- i know i don't want a big bdae hoohaa, but i am imagining a beach party with authentic and freshly baked pizzas (minus off the foam and pool nonsense) and mee in my silk-chiffon floral maxi. woohoo!
- i'm glad to receive support from my colleagues on furthering my studies, regardless of whether or not it is relevant to my current work or future work (which i feel is honestly too soon to speak of - i am a procrastinator, remember?) and the best surprise of all came from one who used to tell me to go for NUS/NTU but now supports this degree by saying she'd take it up too if she had the chance because she now believes that it will be recognised. one of the qns my other colleagues asked was if i'd consider coming back in 2 years' time. =) all i can say is that it's so nice to appreciate not only the people around you, but to feel appreciated as well. what a lovely feeling~ it makes me smile!
- lastly, i know that i think too much, but it's fun to think when there's something to think about :D!
- oops. one more thing :X i'm just 2 days away from seeing doodoo again!
bee at 7:09 PM
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omg it's a zebra-print thing with teeny tiny crystals (which i feel looks jappy!), that probably only looks fab because they did it on a slim and completely table-flat phone. it looks like a bigger version of a nano.. and that's about it. and it looks great because the crystals are stuck onto a zebra-print skin, so it's not your phone that they're sticking the crystals onto. it's just somewhat flashy, but not too attention seeking at the same time. (what in the world am i talking about?) well basically it's something i would love to take outta my bag and hold in my hands when i need my handphone XD! i'm not too into animal-print wholesome dresses or pants or skirts or whatever, but those prints on little things like lingerie and other accessories instead definitely make me tick ;)
so now, there's something i want for my birthday, and it so happens to be my 21st. this is pretty amazing, considering i usually do not know what to say when people ask me what i want as a present. LOL :X
just the other day, when my mummy and i were talking about shopping online - (asking me to use my own card to shop hheheheheh which means i can shop directly at more places because i won't have to physically borrow hers and also talking about this article which spoke about the kinds of cards which can be used to shop online), she told me she's getting me a sup card when i turn 21 because she's a true supporter of credit cards. :) but having one with 0 income means.. i could very well overspend - all the more that should teach me to manage my finances well - which is a skill that requires a lot of discipline to master :X hehe.
bee at 9:16 AM
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but i always had one eye smaller than the other.. so it isn't really a biggie. my lashes are equally curled up in the same angle, so i shouldn't be worrying. now i am just guilty of the pulling because those 2 strands didn't drop off, but are now no longer on my eyelid but i can't tell where. they're admist the other lashes as i saw them sticking out this morning.. but beacuse i can't see their "roots", i can't do anything. well what do i intend to do anyway? it hurts to pull it off. still i don't know why i keep fiddling with my eyelids, pulling them up to see that it's all ok, and so now i wonder if that pulling will loosen my muscles.
haha. anyhow, they're still pretty :) so that's okay!
bee at 10:32 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
anyway, doo felt that the houses were going to collapse any moment. when we opened the doors of one of the shops, you could hear creaks that weren't coming from the door itself, but from the walls haha. and it so happened that there was a catch line on the front page of the newpaper which quoted a father from one of the quake-stricken parts of China as saying sth like this: "quake didn't kill my daughter. school did". so i suppose if it ever happens in haji, it'll be "quake didn't kill my gf. the shop did". :X but thankfully, sg's in a quake-free zone, though we should never take this safety forgranted. we still are able to feel tremors when other countries closeby experience a quake, so we'll never know when it'll be serious enough to actually give us a real shake, though i'm not saying we should be worrying day and night about this as well.
speaking of quakes.. i hardly dare to read the news of all the devastation from the quake + cyclone that's going on. i want to donate clothes, but there's word going round that the collection-of-clothing place at peninsula plaza's received a response that's so overwhelming that they had to stop accepting clothing (w00t?).
back to haji.. i came across this shop with a pair of satin red pumps that caught my eye. while i was wondering if that's the only piece left.. my eyes wandered and caught sight of an entire glass shelf of shoes. :X one of which was a quirky twist to aladdin-style shoes. it was a flat pair, mary-jane style with a single, silver strap that goes from thick-to-thin, left-to-right. it's one that's looks as though it is made of soft metallic cracked leather, and remains very sturdy despite the outershell feel of softness. i checked its size and woohoo, it's a 39! i tried it on (for some reason it looked smaller than a 39) and i realised it's actually a little too big, but the maryjane strap saves the day! i immediately went to the counter and reserved it before others came into the shop heheh :X i told the staff i wanted it without finding out the price first, so i'm glad it didn't cost me a bomb. the most special thing i find about these shoes is its shape. while it is entirely plain from toe to heel, (i don't suppose a metallic-look under light would count), big-feet people like me can never wear pointy toes (actually can, i tried it on at bugis the other day but they didn't look good enough to impress me) and so this one, has the point to the side, where your biggest toe is. so it's sorta like the shoe follows the shape of our toes (from tallest to shortest). SO CUTE! however, when i reached home and re-modelled it, i realised the point isn't obvious when worn and viewed from opposite perspective, and instead makes my feet look bigger than they already are (the usual thing to expect when buying pointy shit for big feet), and all of a sudden its too plain for my liking with no specific detail. this has got to be the plainest pair of shoes i've ever purchased! while it seems that i was going to write this off as an impulse buy, i decided its a keeper. who knows when i'm going to need green shoes? or actually, i simply love the shade of green so much that i want to keep it. furthermore, it's comfy and spacious (mayb that explains why it makes my feet look big!) and one day, perhaps i'll have shoes of every colour (except for a couple of disliked ones). while green has never been on my list, yellow has always been and i am still looking out for a nice yellow pair :( some yellow ones look so cheap, too plain and god knows what.
ahh another good find at haji lane was a maxi dress. because it's made of raw cotton, i'd say it is a very casual floral dress - nothing like the foley & corrina inspired one from F21 which i already have. however, i am looking for something casual because i can't bear to wear that silk one out :X i'm only hesitating because one of the dresses i spotted at the shop was selling online at $33.. and it retails for $50 at the shop. thus i'm worried i'll see online shops sprouting up with maxi dress collections and with the same design popping up. they've only got 3 pcs for that design in the shop.. so that's not too bad (in terms of the likelihood of me seeing someone wearing the same thing, and chances of it going OOS by Tuesday). i'm not exactly a fan of florals, because i think sometimes they look ah-ma when unmodelled, but i seem to have a different view of that when florals are placed on a white/cream/black base. take my hurs suitcase for example (i LOVE it!!!).
well anyway. i ended up getting the raw cotton maxi with hotpink and white large florals + green pointy leaves at a hefty price (hefty because i saw it selling for cheaps somewhere else) but i guess it's always safer to pay more for something you can try on, especially something with prints. because if you get a dress with prints that happen to be stitched at positions where you least want them to be, it's horrid. my bro said it looks mature.. (which brings me back to my initial thought of it being AH MA) but i think that with my current short fringe hair, it balances out to make me look my age. PLUS.. i've been looking for a really casual maxi anyway, so this fits my description (except that this one turned out to be black, so not spring, but the garden florals save the day). there were silky satin ones as well, but what's the point of getting a casual spring-summer dress that's in the same material as a formal one? if one does, one might as well wear an evening gown out. why bother about specially getting a maxi that's supposed to be casual enough to bring you from shopping to tea time and not wedding dinner time?
i have plans for more maxis. this is quite obvious, as the title of the post suggests. doo asked me why i'm following this 'trend' since i recognise it as a trend by telling him it's moving so slowly in ever-so-slow Singapore (in a fashion/retail sense) possibly due to height issues, and it's simply because i think it's fun to be decked out in something different from what i usually wear out, bearing in mind it feels somewhat different from wearing mini dresses, and i certainly think it's something that's less fuss, more oomph. =D muahahhaa.. the kinda thing i xoxo.
bee at 6:19 AM
(0) hushy lil babies!
x made it known to the parents of the children whom i'm teaching that i'm leaving at the end of june.
x paid $44 for a horrid haircut.
x am absolutely mad about hunting for maxi dresses.
what i thought was so difficult to do turned out to be easier than i thought. i'm referring to point number one: telling the peeps that i'm leaving.
and the responses i got were surprising :X while overall the responses expressed their dismay, they also included bits of "it's good to study while you have no commitments" and "it's better to study before you get married". and in one conversation with a parent, she repeatedly asked me to defer for a year and asked the head of centre to ask me to defer as well because she felt her child has been making steady progress with me, and when she came back the next day, she jokingly said she'll kill me. but nevertheless, she still wished me all the best, while commenting as well that next week would be my last teaching week T_T. haha. i feel so appreciated. another went "harrrrrrrrrr" and said that we should keep in touch, citing the possibility of me becoming her home intervention teacher, which i felt was a service her son didn't need. before the session ended, she took a picture of her child + me together. how nice! one other parent whose child has a resistance to touch from others (before she gets to know you well enough to be termed as a "familiar person") was worried about how her child would cope as she said her child was already close to me. well i guess it is good to let the kids experience a change and see how they learn to cope with it. the head of our centre as well as myself had to assure the parents that the next teacher would be an experienced one and that the education of their child would not be compromised in any way.
suddenly i have a renewed passion for special needs. :X but of course i'm still keeping my options open, which was precisely why i had chosen not to get bonded at all.
well, there's just one more teaching week to go. i wonder what this goodbye would be like and for some reason i'm not exactly looking forward to it because i can't believe that my colleagues and i have reached the last teaching week of Semester 1, 2008. and i'm getting rather worried too because it's almost the end of the teaching term but my singing voice has not fully recovered. i am still unable to sing out certain notes, and it irks me because i can't sing my favourite songs while listening to my mp3s!! i get so mad i end up switching off my music player. well i guess for now i'll just think about what i'm looking forward to tomorrow: seeing doodoo, shopping and eating!
bee at 7:09 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
thankfully the staff were extremely courteous and really tried to make up for their mistake. we really would've stayed to eat if we had the time! doo filled up the feedback form which came with the bill, and i was glad that he did (so i could eat hehe). and while he was doing so, i felt so happy because i felt that he had matured (heh not in every way cos there's bits of him that stay the same :X) and that he somehow or rather has a pretty cool way of handling stuff when i'm all upset and panicky.
for example, there was one day when i wanted to collect a parcel from the post office. i had forgotten that they close earlier on weekends, so by the time i got there, there were only like 2 of the staff inside who were walking around in the dimmed post office and who had absolutely no eye contact with us at all. i was really looking forward to my box of scallops from aji ichiban which i had specially and expensively imported, and thus i was extremely disappointed and negative at that point in time. X_X i felt they wouldn't make any exception to help us with it and was seriously going to leave and cry in my heart. haha. doo however, managed to get the attention of an auntie :X and he explained to her that we couldn't have made it any earlier because we rushed down the moment he could book out :X (well he does have the hair of a fresh army boy). with his calm and cool explanation, the auntie helped us to get our parcel!~!~ OMG i couldn't believe it and i was so happieeeeee!~!~ about the parcel and about the way in which doodoo helped me to manage the situation :X whee! i simply had such a lovely feeling after that..
well it looks like i'm back to missing doo for another 5 days (and i'll be counting down again).. before i get to see him on friday night T_T~ for now i probably just have to look at the strawberry chocolate notebook he bought for me which i like very very much and which was made to look as though someone had taken a bite off that gorgeous baby pink chocolate bar and of course think of him all the time till i fall asleep. anyway, a booking has been made for the Singapore Flyer so we'll be going up to see the lights! and hopefully have dinner at popeyes' before that heehehhe.. i love their cheesecake bites and we've been going there for lunch once every two weeks since a month ago or something! :D
bee at 11:46 PM
(0) hushy lil babies!
please don't get me wrong - i am terrifically happy that i've gotten into it and still am actually (everytime someone asks me about the degree i start smiling like a mad dope), and in fact i was looking forward to it very much until my timetable was released. :X there's just some things in there which took me an entire day to come to terms with, because i finally managed to convince myself that nothing can be done about it and that well, there definitely is a reason why some things are in place. however, just this evening, i received an email from one of the students who are going to be in my cohort, who seemed to be feeling the way i am feeling, or at least almost, because i am surprised at how strong her feelings are, and while i'm unable to match up to their strength, i can feel that she is indeed disturbed by the outcome of some news. i am so not alone, i suppose, in this world where a fully contented person who remains in that state forever is such a rare find, and so at the end of the day it probably is all about how we accept others, and hopefully those others would accept us in the same way in which we accept them. i believe that's how we keep going.
also, now that i know that i know nobody in the entire cohort, i am kinda worried about my antisocialness haha. it's a rather weird feeling to be excited about new things to come and yet be worried about the unpredictability of it all. doo says (in his SMS typed miles away) that perhaps i should just go to school to have fun.
yeah and i really think i should. a huge percentage (actually it's 100%) of my stress is caused by worrying over things that have yet to happen. i just keep providing myself with endless worst-case scenarios! jiahui gave some insight into the kind of activities i can expect to participate in during lessons (and so i imagined myself in them haha), and OMG one'd really need creativity to carry those out. i haven't been exercising my creativity for over a year now, because i've just been desperately trying to learn from others about the best ways and more ways in which i can help the children i'm working with. picking up knowledge from others is useful, but exercising your creativity is another thing altogether which sometimes i feel, requires one to go against the odds, to move away from what's the norm and what we usually do or see everyday. sad to say, that i've spent most of my time trying to learn to do what i usually see others doing and the only thing about my individuality that i've kept sane is my work dressing of low jeans and long tops plus my outershell-shy nature.
well, nvm about all that for now. before i start all the theorised stuff again, i have some time to enjoy myself during the coming june "hols". :) some of the events (from now till the end of my freedom) on my mind are:
- a colleague's getting married so what exactly to wear? i want to dress up in sth that's not obiang but yet conservative and appropriate.
- meetups with several friends, i have like at least 4 meetups on my list now!
- hopefully a lash extension ;)
- pedicures (WOOHOO i can pedi like mad for the next 2 years!)
- meeting doodoo not just on weekends but on weekdays too
- a visit to the dentist
- and also, a to-do-or-not-to-do perm. i've done the one-day kind before and it looks totally fab when the curls start wearing off into waves. =) it's not just totally fab, i think it's gorgeous hair to have like every single day of the week and every week of the month. =)
- i know i don't want a big bdae hoohaa, but i am imagining a beach party with authentic and freshly baked pizzas (minus off the foam and pool nonsense) and mee in my silk-chiffon floral maxi. woohoo!
- i'm glad to receive support from my colleagues on furthering my studies, regardless of whether or not it is relevant to my current work or future work (which i feel is honestly too soon to speak of - i am a procrastinator, remember?) and the best surprise of all came from one who used to tell me to go for NUS/NTU but now supports this degree by saying she'd take it up too if she had the chance because she now believes that it will be recognised. one of the qns my other colleagues asked was if i'd consider coming back in 2 years' time. =) all i can say is that it's so nice to appreciate not only the people around you, but to feel appreciated as well. what a lovely feeling~ it makes me smile!
- lastly, i know that i think too much, but it's fun to think when there's something to think about :D!
- oops. one more thing :X i'm just 2 days away from seeing doodoo again!
bee at 7:09 PM
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i've never really been mad about skins before, until i saw one which i fell madly in love with.
omg it's a zebra-print thing with teeny tiny crystals (which i feel looks jappy!), that probably only looks fab because they did it on a slim and completely table-flat phone. it looks like a bigger version of a nano.. and that's about it. and it looks great because the crystals are stuck onto a zebra-print skin, so it's not your phone that they're sticking the crystals onto. it's just somewhat flashy, but not too attention seeking at the same time. (what in the world am i talking about?) well basically it's something i would love to take outta my bag and hold in my hands when i need my handphone XD! i'm not too into animal-print wholesome dresses or pants or skirts or whatever, but those prints on little things like lingerie and other accessories instead definitely make me tick ;)
so now, there's something i want for my birthday, and it so happens to be my 21st. this is pretty amazing, considering i usually do not know what to say when people ask me what i want as a present. LOL :X
just the other day, when my mummy and i were talking about shopping online - (asking me to use my own card to shop hheheheheh which means i can shop directly at more places because i won't have to physically borrow hers and also talking about this article which spoke about the kinds of cards which can be used to shop online), she told me she's getting me a sup card when i turn 21 because she's a true supporter of credit cards. :) but having one with 0 income means.. i could very well overspend - all the more that should teach me to manage my finances well - which is a skill that requires a lot of discipline to master :X hehe.
bee at 9:16 AM
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