Monday, November 27, 2006

we did our pre-test and introduction of ourselves at the childcare centre at OCC today. the kids are actually quite lovable :) and i'm thankful for that. but i felt that there wasn't much of an oomph and i'm somehow just waiting for things to happen. waiting for the interesting and fun stuff to begin.. like our skit.. and yada yada yada.

it was kinda funny though, there was a kid who gave us this "oops! i'm caught" look and i could laugh for forever on that one. another said "my mother's friends always say that i'm cute, but i'm not cute, i'm handsome!".. and that people always say that he's cheeky, but he insists that he's not a chicken. -.-... is this like kids say the darnest things? LOL..

been having an on-off tummyache the entire morning and i don't know what's wrong, but i was SO scared that i would just laosai in the middle of nowhere. i hope it won't be like that for the rest of the week. LOL.

ah one thing i really regretted not doing today was taking the bus to the centre today. i was afraid of being late, so i took the train, and reached at 8 sharp. however, we only left the station at 830am cos some peeps were late.. and i knew i should've taken the 2-hour long journey by bus instead.. taking the train yanks the value ($$) off my card too quickly - 6 trips is all it takes.

stayin' over at sher's place this wed to prepare some stuff for our next 2 iep implementations this friday and monday. i'm not sure if i should be excited.. cos at this point in time i am thinking of sewing or painting = therapeutic things to do.

i want to make a pair of white, lace ballet pumps with those criss-cross satin laces.

but first, i have to get past today (finishing my assignment), tomorrow (handing in my assignment), Wednesday (reaching school at 930am and staying up till late to prepare the IEP stuff at sher's place and then drag ourselves to school on thursday morning for the 9am funny class) and finally Friday afternoon (implementation 1 day!). so i can do whatever i want with my ME and WE time over the weekend.

i feel and sound so stoned. its that i-need-a-life feeling again. but defining that kinda life is another thing altogether.
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Thursday, November 23, 2006

with PMS worsening my mood and the frequency of my mood swings, i took off the fugly nail colour last night (meaning, the night after i had those nails done).

i couldn't take the scratched patent texture of it and super bimbotic colour. i hated the light because my nails looked even more hideous when under it. so finally. the fake, plastic look-alike toy nails are gone - entirely swept away by the wonders of nail polish remover. i'm glad they're gone. for every second that the colour existed, i felt like i could kill somebody with those nails. the pinkish red - urgh. a colour that i never want to remember but one that i know i'll never forget. good though, so i'll make sure i won't choose that colour ever again.

=)

maybe it wasn't the colour's fault but just the length of my nails :( they look shorter after all that filing (done by the manicurist). i hope they'll be LONG LONG LONG by the time xmas comes. yay!

bee at 7:33 PM

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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

pee.am.ass.

i woke up this morning to find hairline scratches on the polished surface of my freshly-manicured nails from last night.

it made me wonder if sitting at the parlour for an extra period of time to "wait for my nails to dry" actually helped. *pouts*.

and i honestly have no idea how it happened or why. :( but i was disgusted. displeased. and i looked upon my nails disdainfully. and whatever.

but at least, for the very first time in my life, i discovered by myself and realised what it is like to have PMS kicking you in the butt. hmm. in fact, it can be amazingly described in one sentence. or maybe its just that i don't have any other character traits of Miss/Mr? PMS to add in yet. Basically, I think that it makes me have an extremely limited fuse - one that is way too short for my own good. During this time, it seems like everything exists just for the mere reason of irking me (so lame), but no - its just that i am being irked by everything way too easily.

T_T i am not liking this. PeeAmAss. go away now. please!!! -.-

o ya. and i caught Step Up as well. hoho. i loved the dancing parts. the rest are just extras.. scenes that involved kissing and kissing and more kissing that i know "auntie" jane would definitely go ga-ga over :X and then i thought to myself that if i ever had a daughter, i'd expose her to dancing classes (unless she has absolutely zero interest in it). whatever you don't have, you'd give to your kiddo yeah? so yeah, i think that the performing arts is a cool thing. because when i watched that movie, i imagine how fun (although tiring?) it may have been for the lead actress for dance and dance and dance like NOBODY's business!! and also because she looked like her self-esteem was SO high up there (somewhere in the skies where u and i can't see) that nobody could ever reach it to pull it down. and if that was what she truly felt within herself, then WOW - everyone should have a taste of that. :D but i kinda think that we should learn from young if we wanna learn how to dance - before the bones stiffen and all. X_X!

toodlelee~toodlelaa~

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Friday, November 17, 2006

happy, melly, day!

YAY! melly is back in SG.. and we met up with each other today!!! it has been TWO FREAKING YEARS.. and she still looks the same!

as she spoke about what NZ life was like.. i was under the impression that it was filled to the brim with balls, balls and more balls.. things like dancing lessons.. baking... and crazy friends that spice up any bland day. it really makes me feel like singapore life = no life... and the usual kinda lives people lead are: gaming. staying at home to slack. sleeping. clubbing.

anyway, i got an anna sui-inspired ring at forever 21.. mel had a top to exchange for another one that was NICE.. floaty.. and so suitable for swirling around. =) the peeps at f21 refused to allow an exchange unless we got sth that's $53 and above.. mel was short of a couple of bucks and couldn't find anything else, so she insisted i get that black rose ring, which i hesitated getting at first, cos i felt that black was a colour that was hard to be seen (for accessories especially, i wondered if the rose would look like a black blob of stuff if it wasn't viewed close up HAHA). anyway, i got to thank melly for being so nice.. she said i just had to top-up only the remaining amount.. because she didn't have anything else to buy to carry out the exchange anyway. :D THANKS MELLYPOO!

my legs hurt now.. after so much of walking. >.< but it was fun even though i must admit i was kinda quiet at times? i realised that i like shopping with mel cos we look at similar stuff.. so i can walk beside her while shopping and not feel bored. we also picked up the same top, and had the same comments about a pair of shoes! LOL. i can't even remember when i experienced something like that. i am gonna miss times like these when she has to go back to NZ again in Feb T_T!

i decided to stop updating my wishlist. cos there are too many things that i want, and i've been buying a lot of stuff lately (though not necessarily clothes at all, just tons of stuff that are for fun, laughter, peace and joy). i've been looking out for Red/White FLAT Peep Toes, and perhaps a cropped blazer =) and as usual, i feel like buying doubles of those things that i can't bear to wear, in case they wear out sooner than i want them to.. such as the super bling and big gold diamond ring, leather school bag with gold accents & ropes as handles, and my black patent leather loop nyc bow wallet!!! >.< my superego is trying to tell me to CONTROL myself and fight my urge for greed!

as i was speaking to melly about some stuff.. the word "neighbourhood" sprang up a couple of times :x i felt kinda uncomfortable and somewhat guilty.. cos it sounded so discriminatory even though i didn't mean for it to be that way :( i just wanted to get the meaning across that it was just simply out of town area. but i didn't know what other words i could use. "heartlands"? sounds like a friendlier but superficial way of saying it. argh. mel suggested "HDB people". but i can't possibly say "hey! i was at the HDB people area the other day..".. that sounds so weird too =/

i'm hungry already. off to dinner. toodles~

bee at 7:18 PM

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

more or less

i feel as though i am less bothered by lots of things that i would usually bother about last time.

i'm not sure if its a good thing - well, my stress level is lowered, and i worry less about what people think basically.

but i wonder if it makes me less considerate in any way? hopefully not.

been saying lots of weird things as usual. one of which was to Jiahui. "the good things in life are expensive". (like soft toys).

then she enlightened me.. "shouldn't it be.. the good things in life are free?".

at that point in time, i agreed. but now i realise.. i shouldn't have :P

because.. the BEST things in life are free. *priceless, in my opinion).

haha. for everything else that's just/only good enough, i think it comes with a price tag.
eg. having that soft toy that ur bf bought for you in your hand cost $80 is good. but knowing that he SPECIALLY bought it for you = priceless.

:D

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

D is for Delifrance. and D is for disappointing.

we went to Delifrance for dinner. and we were SO disappointed. we came across it while we were walking around.. and we happily settled for it cos they came up with new food, new desserts and stuff that we haven't tried before. it seems curiosity got the better of me for ONCE! we had one serving of their Terradon chicken and Beef Lasagne plus desserts.

I felt SO cheated. their portions were for XXS-sized asians! and the beef lasagne picture on their menu looked so good - fat, with beef spilling all over. but what i got just a miserable flat piece of thing that resembled a slice of bread, with beef that i had to squint my eyes to find. quite obviously, the beef lasagne that was pictured in their menu wasn't cooked by them. and then the Chicken Terradon (which way is it supposed to be said in? haha).. it looked like roast chicken from the outside, but when it came with the sauce and all.. it just tasted like chicken porridge.

we were hoping that the desserts would prove to us that dining at delifrance was worth it, since we spent $30 there. if the food isn't good, it should at least be reasonable! but haha. the only good thing about the desserts was that they had more taste than the main dishes. (more taste could mean more sour btw). mine looked diffferent from the pics again, because it wasn't decorated at all. no syrup on the ice-cream like what's shown in the pic. just wined-cherries & syrup poured into the bowl and a scoop of vanilla ice-cream on top. so opposite. T_T!

i am NEVER going back there for a MEAL. maybe pastries and stuff are OK. maybe. if everything on the menu looks AND tastes 500% better in picture than in its actual self, i was thinking swensons is still better (for that price range!). doodoo even said its MUCH better.

X_X.

i miss pastatmania's beef lasagne MORE than ever now.

bee at 9:07 AM

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Friday, November 10, 2006

the sun didn't seem to burn today

the school term has started to get really busy. or rather, i have started to get busy with school work.

and so it makes me cherish wonderful, short moments like walking home on a rainy day. it is somewhat sickening to walk on a damp, concrete floor. but today, it is different.

i was touched by the sunshine after the rain.

it is my favourite after-the-rain feeling that i experienced when walking home from the bus stop today. i allowed the sun's heat to absorb the coldness of my clammy skin - which got far too used to air-conditioning. it is the feeling of warming up. and it is that feeling of allowing what's cold to get somewhat soaked away by something stronger, and hotter. it is just lovely to let the sun get into my skin. i needed it - the warmth and cosy, everlastingly-gold thing about the sun.

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Monday, November 06, 2006

dolce-vita

my weekend was purely sickening because.. i was sick.

i woke up on Fri morning with a pain in my throat. i thought i was just developing a sore throat but as i started feeling tired in the early afternoon while i was at Taka with cheryl.. something was so wrong. i felt that i was starting to get weary and quiet. hmm. then tAdAA! i got a fever in the evening X_X.

then the thing just went on and off throughout Saturday, with of course, the sore throat becoming an inflamed throat. and on Sunday, i had both the inflamed throat and an inflamed right jaw. Today, it is the inflamed throat (it feels like there's a fishbone somewhere) and an inflamed right jaw AND an inflamed spot on my left jaw.

since i've been hooked on tea lately - Jasmine Green Tea and Crysanthemum (how do i spell this?) and Wolfberry NutriTea.. it got me wondering if there are Heaty Teas since there are Cooling Teas. just like how there's the overpowering Heaty Korean Ginseng and cooling American ginseng :D i can't think of anything else that explains the inflammation in me.. except for the lack of sleep :D i am guilty of staying up till the wee hours of the morning to bid on stuff on eBay. because it is so competitive. SO competitive beyond anyone's imagination.

anyway, doo and i went to Petite Nouilles for a jap-french dining thing on Sat evening.. and after that when we were walking off to the bus stop.. we saw a black-bodied kitty with white paws!!! sooooooo kyoooootE! it was a Kitten. :D then we walked on (cos it went to hide somewhere) and we saw another one! They were twins! and the 2nd one went into the bushes to look for the first one... SO CUTE........ their faces had a bit of white too. they're unlike the usual striped or spotted strays because of their white paws! i don't know why they chose to play hide and seek though. its so easy to find one another because of their white paws ;P its like everything's dark, green and black and suddenly u see 4 white paws that dingdingding and move along the path.. :D its so OBVIOUS!

i felt like a kid at macs before we went for dinner. that's cos we bought Green Tea from there.. and i started scratching the cover (i didn't remember that the cover could be scratched before? What a Discovery!). and so i drew a heart and showed it to him. he drew an "I Heart You" and showed it back to me! so kiddy >.
and as much as my throat hurt, i couldn't resist Crystal Jade. :X so on Sunday, we went for it! WOOHOO!

i just feel like a kid. i don't know why. perhaps its the way i complain about how life is. how cute i think the kittens are and that they're cute enough to take home LOL. and how i let Crystal Jade tempt doodoo and i and how we give in to temptation >.< i think he just knows that i wouldn't say no to Crystal Jade. haha. and how we discovered softdrinkcup-cover scratching. O_O!

and just a really minor thing that's become a major issue to me. i saw a tank top that i like at Zara. it comes in two colours. black with silver accessories and brown with gold accessories. the latter looks more expensive due to the gold accessories, and honestly i love gold more than ever now. but the black tank top is more flattering than the gold cos it makes me look slimmer and actually, when paired up with the silver accessories, it all fits pretty well together! :X. so i am stuck in this dilemma and its so frustrating that i am considering not buying any at all since i can't come to a single decision! if i bought both, i'll consider myself greedy. now i bet this is something that'll be on my mind throughout the entire day today in school. argh.

bee at 10:46 AM

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