Thursday, July 05, 2007

Week Two of Semester Two two-o-o-seven X_X

i really, really miss the holidays so much :(

i just can't help but think of the next LOOONG one in December.. and then the next one in June... (JAPAN!~!~!~) holidays are like rewards for slogging continuously for 10 whole weeks. i can't imagine working in some place with only 14 days or 21 days of annual leave X_X! but because my workplace follows the primary school holidays, i can't help but feel that i'm back at school again (like a schoolgoing kid):D! maybe that's how the other teachers feel too, that's why they look 10 years younger -.-

doodoo and i had so much fun at sentosa.. going down just to ride the luge. and its such a pity. due to time constraints and the threatening weather, we couldn't go on the water bicycles again~

anyway, mellypoo's back :D she surprised me with a call on Monday~ and luckily i saved her grandma's house no. so i knew immediately who that missed call was from haha~ it was so good to meet up with her again!! and she asked that not-surprising question again.. abt when i intend to get married -.- i wish i knew.

and on Monday, i just spent a whopping $95.90 at La Senza. actually, i quite like the number, but i don't like the way i'm regretting my purchases - because they just aren't as flattering as the bras i bought from the usual bra shoppe that brings in their stuff from Japan :( (except for this pinky lace-up front skirted panty with removable garter ties/straps whatever and some other bottoms, which i am so happy about) now i don't know why i bought those things from La Senza. was it cos the white eyelet set was featured in Maxim? or was it cos another item i bought, a corset, was for the sake of it being cheap and thinking that i may one day find myself with a real need for it? haha. though i think that it doesn't help to trim much at all so that's why i'm starting to regret everything =/ anyway this is so Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic - who always thinks that she's going to need an item in the future.. (but that need doesn't exactly exist in the future i suppose).

sometimes i get so worried about teaching alone that i feel like crying, just like today. because situations can get so intimidating - that i start to doubt myself of my abilities (if i have any). but somehow or rather, things turned out fine, with some support here and there. :D woohoo! that's what makes me feel like i'm over the moon (and tempt me to shop to celebrate).

i think that worries and troubles are so real, especially for a worrier like me. but perhaps that's what keeps me going, in some way or other. like how i think of the worst and when things turn out to be better than what i expected them to be, its a good thing isn't it? call it pessimism if you really must, but the joy and satisfaction that i get from worrying and then getting things done is just, great. its puzzling, yet amazing, that i should think of it this way. but when things really do get bad, i tell myself that tomorrow will always be better, because it could never be worse than what had already happened.
bee at 7:55 PM