Saturday, February 23, 2008

ups and downs

it is extremely maddening when:
1) i have 4 pieces of clothing to alter but have no time to do so (and i need a good place cos 3 of which are very cherished pieces).
2) i'm putting on weight: if only salaries increase with our weight!
3) i want to eat eat and eat the things that i wanna but i can't because doo is a lazy bum.
4) i actually dread going to work everyday.

basically, i'm mad about not being able to do what i want whenever i want to. because of work commitments, because of blablabla. the dread about going to work is so intense in the mornings that i just keep telling myself iwannagohome! but what i realised too was, i like to be kept busy - cos once i get there, i'm pulled into the teaching sessions and then everything seems to get better already, especially when i see and hear with my own eyes and ears that my students are making progress, no matter how quickly or slowly. guess that's precisely what makes it hard to quit. though once the day ends i get into thiis entire mood of going home - but who doesn't like to go home to their comfort zone?

anyway, i'm not sure if the medication's making my skin even drier now, cos i thought it wouldn't, though i've been warned before that it would. some essential part of my fingernail has worn off, i've got scratches on my hands from work (and i'm not sure if i get them SO easily because my skin is so dry and easy to split) as well as a hole on my arm because i knocked my clipboard down and while i was doing so, it dug into my skin first before falling onto the floor, thus making the wound a raw hole with a scratch. it's kinda like a shooting star when seen from afar. and as usual, i'm worried about scarring.

right now i'm also thinking about the meeting at sher's house - needless to say, mango with chocolate was totally fab! but what was even better was meeting up with my friends, who are still the same, and whom one of them said i am still the same LOL.

which reminds me, i can't wait to see jiahui as well. :) our precious date in two weeks!

and it is also in 2 weeks' time that i will be rewarded with my trip. WOOHOO!
bee at 7:46 AM