Tuesday, February 26, 2008

the stormcloud

it was approx 2 weeks before the stipulated release of the results of the admission into the degree programme and guess what? i'm already rejected.

doo said he knows i'm disappointed. i simply said i feel fucked up. it's not about disappointment at all. that i'm so sure, but what i wasn't sure about was why i cried. was it mere sadness? or was it cos i was spoilt and didn't get what i want? it felt like the time when i didn't get into tk, but only worse - because this time, worry had set in.

well, by the end of the week i had learnt to live my life as usual, shop as usual (though i've realised there hasn't been much to buy until this week came along), listen to my favourite songs as usual - both happy and sad - which is fab really, considering now i find i've learnt to appreciate my job a little more (though it'll never hurt if i was paid more) haha and at the same time, i'm learning how to cope with the times when i don't get what i want (though seldom, but still, we can't always have the moon whenever we want it). well i'm starting to see the fun in getting pleasant reactions from others (and even if the reaction is neutral, you know u've exposed them to something new), no matter how physically messy the circumstances are (eg. dripping bubble solution splatted all over the floor of my teaching area and rice flying all over the place).

and it is finally time to board the ship when tomorrow comes, after the lovely day i had with jiahui yesterday - all our beauty appointments. :) i really hope she likes the lil pressie i gave her because i'm so late X_X why do i ever bother keeping an organiser really? anyway, thank God there's always good things to look forward to :)
bee at 11:09 PM