Friday, December 21, 2007

as the grey clouds clear.. the white ones come out to play

this morning i opened the windows and wished i could keep the same feeling for every other day.

the sun is bright, with no hint of dark grey clouds, and the cool breeze greets my poor, irritated, pimpled face and washes it for me :X

it really dawned upon me that the installation art i saw some time ago at the underpass which connects citylink to the esplanade was so, so true. not that i never believed what it was trying to prove (about people withering away like plants when kept within just 4 stupid walls), but this time, i experienced it myself. the morning's great because its early. i do get up early every other day to head to work, but more often than not i am clouded in my own worries which makes me so stressed about facing the day that i've forgotten what being with what the morning brings is like. sure, its not like i loved going to school at just before 7am, but at least it was nothing like looking back and appreciating the simple, refreshing moment of the cool 6am+ air for once, maybe because it was such a daily affair then that there wasn't really a need to see what i really had (at that point it was just "oh gawd, its mass run day today. please rain".

but today, i imagine the dew on the grass evaporating and as it goes up into the sky, the bee who is on the 11th storey gets its perfection.

as i thought about all of these while making my way back to my own room, i realised that act of breathing in the fresh morning air (which my parents like to do too i think) actually put me in a mood of donning my white miss selfridge summer getaway super duper ultra floaty dress just for the fun of swishing the skirt around. which reminds me, i have been buying loads of dresses i don't need and most of them happen to be white - white tube dresses, white spag dresses and a white base dress with boaty woaty prints and ribbon ties~~~ perhaps the blacks and the greys of the so-called winter have sickened me and i am seeking the blooming spring while trying to get rid of my useless and nasty winter purchases =/ (not cos i want to erase the fact that winter came, but it's more of cleaning out for the coming spring).

ugh, and did i mention i felt so horribly naked in the MRT train like 2-3 weeks ago when i was wearing a dress by itself because the whole world was dressed up in their full length leggings or covered-toe tights (which actually is pantyhose) and long-sleeved stuff inclusive of cardigans when it wasn't even cold? it seriously amazes me when people dress like that because the weather really is getting cold now, but that wasn't exactly the case 2-3 weeks ago, so does that mean we should be covered in fur for the xmas season? -_- actually, for all i know, they could just be fashion victims who are actually feeling all hot and heaty in their cover-all outfits and whose armpits are secretly but desperately sweating in protest, all away from our eyes. haha ok i'm just kiddin' :X~

anyway, back to where i initially was, maybe i really should open my windows every day until the last day before work begins (because work days are work days) and enjoy what i really can before the nightmare starts again.

i'm not even sure if i should say this, but oh bother.
bee at 7:56 AM