Monday, November 26, 2007

w00tie w00tie w00t w00t.

met up with approx ten others (on Sunday) who used to play my beloved game Elancia~ which has since closed down due to the rise of 3D games. but aww.. that one one game which quit before i did, so i never really got enough of it. i miss it so T_T! i get lost in 3D games like WOW (the mad people's game which i so so so dislike) and Fiesta.

it was amazing, cos there was a couple who were husband and wife and they have like 3 kids but they're so into gaming :X these are the parents who can "train" their children's in-game characters for them while they're at school haha~ and more importantly, gaming'll become another common topic to add on to the list~ so cool! the younger ones like us were saying that its great cos then you get to know what your kids are doing online at the same time as well~

anyway, they went to sing K after that and i just sat there the whole time because 1) K is not my type of thing, though i must admit it looks somewhat fun. 2) i am so shy that i don't sing in front of people i don't know well enough. oh gawd, am i antisocial or what :X well basically i find it difficult to read chinese FAST (as in fast enough to sing it, because my cognitive processing in that area is really slow:X) and its just weird to sing old english songs with funny MTVs. i won't even call those MTVs haha! but i don't know what else to call those oldie vids.

when it comes to big group social situations i tend to just take a backseat and let the others whom i can trust do the talking, whether or not i'm with my parents, or whether or not i'm with doodoo. for some reason i'm happier listening to what others have to say, and its not that i wish to be left alone because i don't want to. in fact, its like watching real-life situations without that glass TV screen, and it seems entertaining that way to me. well of course i would be more than happy to talk when i have something to say, and there are times when i feel so guilty because i yak on and on and i feel as if i don't give others enough speech time :X! this is so a**istic, if you ask me. the consolation is that this only happens to people whom i'm comfortable with. haa :X

went to work for a talk today on occupational therapy.. and after that we had a lunch with everyone from both branches. the head treated us to a buffet @ sakura.. and that was just so nice of her! my colleagues insisted that they pay for the cab rides as well~ which doesn't help to make me feel any better :X but ahh well, i have nothing to complain about since it was such a nice gesture yea.

met up with jiahui on monday for some shopping and talking, basically a lot about our current jobs now. (she wore this really pretty floral dress and it really is pretty when i say it is cos i'm a person who doesn't usually like prints and floral motifs). we also did our hair - she did a wavey "perm" and i requested for some styling :) i had swirly victorian curlsss which had to be messed about before they turned fab. so fun! haha~ and while we were walking around the mall, a pair of pinkie-beigey glittery princess shoes with a satin ribbon by the side caught my eye, but since they're heels jiahui bought them to match the clothes she's going to wear for her friend's wedding instead. ahh, i changed my leopard flats into a pair of gold ballet pumps (which are so versatile) and jiahui went to pick up her HOT jap-style patent boots. i call it jappy because she modelled it for me with her floral dress + white cardigan and that just looked so jap!!! she agreed, saying that s'poreans hardly dress that way~ ahha! and i also picked up a chilli red metallic 'corset' belt, an addition to the black, gold, bronze and silver ones i have now! i've been trying to stop myself from buying impulse, and apparently the term 'control' here does not necessarily guarantee a hundred percent success rate (well nobody's perfect) so what i do is i try to shop less :P instead of getting 3 dresses i get 1.. and leave the remaining 2 at the back of my mind, in addition to the issue about work/studies (yes its still there!). currently people assume that i'm going to take up the bond offered by the company, and that only helps to make me feel worse. cos i don't know how to say no in their faces. the most i can express is an "i'm not exactly that keen at the moment" kinda thing. plus i know time's running out for me to confirm that NO.

and i really need to go back to work to save some of my files from the com there into my thumbdrive, so i can start working on individualised educational plans, as well as pack up my stuff so i can prepare for the move over to the east side. at the same time, reb's and ailay's meetups have been postponed and i seriously feel so paisae when i keep doing that =/ the 6 weeks holiday feels like its only 6 days while in actual fact its something like 20+ days.

there's just too much thinking going on in this usually braindead brain of mine.
bee at 10:27 AM