Sunday, November 18, 2007

could slacking and shopping be my hobby?

a couple of days ago i remember calling up star cruises for the umpteenth number of time and to my dismay, all cabins for the march school hols 3n departure on superstar virgo are taken up. w00t? and once again i thought i was earlY!~!~ madness, i was thinking.. how could the entire ship be fully booked 5 months before the date of departure?

hoho and just last night i tried my luck again, hoping that some seats would've been released and when i asked for balcony class (oh why did i?) they said they had just 1 cabin left on the highest deck for cabins! (deck 11) weehee :) needless to say it was costly of course -.- hitting almost 2k thank you~ which is far more expensive than going to bangkok or hongkong or whatever. (how on earth am i going to get to Japan by end-May to early-June if i keep spending like this?)~

anyway i was so excited about the trip that i mindlessly started to plan my outfits with the rough itinery that i got from doo (because the army had a 3n trip planned for dec too). but i realised that AIYA no point in doing so, cos by the time march comes i'll have more new clothes again. i also realised something else. i'm going to have to pack loads of shoes in! because i have shoes to match different outfits and if i'm bringing all the different outfits i'll need the different shoes too! :X!

hmm. i'm going back to work in the east again next semester/year. for some reason it didn't feel like i'm leaving the west at all, and at the same time i keep imagining what being in the east again after a whole semester's break away from it would be like. and oh no i'm teaching 2 kids who are born in 2005 and i haven't met them yet (i'm going to, tomorrow) but i'm already anxious and nervous and panicky and frantic and God knows what.

i know i need to get back to school, but the experience really seems to be much more important here. furthermore i don't exactly know what i wish to study yet. there seems to be loads of fun things to study but a lot of things may not be what they seem to be~ and some of these things take an awful lot of time (4 years) and i don't want/need the honours unless its 1st class, which of course is never guaranteed no matter how leet studying English or any other language like French seems to be. i still hate taking risks even at this age.. well i guess some things just never change (like me repeating this entire paragraph every time this issue is in my mind). well of course the other easy option is to take the same old thing for 2 years and obviously whichever way i go i just would never know how or where i'd end up. life becomes a gamble for me whichever way i look at it - because i can't picture EXACTLY what things would be like if i studied this or that until i step into it myself, which of course by then it is too late to change (to me) and i wouldn't want to. i mean there are times when i think that to some extent a degree is just a degree and perhaps i could always venture into another field later on.. and to some other extent a degree is not just a degree especially when some people really look, stare and consider it. i am still in the same dilemna as i was in march, sad to say, but everyone goes through these decisions, just some spending less thought on it than others, and obviously me spending way too much thought on it. for now, i think i would still go ahead with the 'shorter' choice that is sort of obviously right in front of me and everyone else, though i wouldn't say it is the easier choice~

well what i would consider as fun for work which if these 'conditions' are met i don't think anyone would think of it as work anymore (since its too perfect for me), really:
starting work early (because i'm an early riser) and ending work early so i can go shop around~ OR having flexi-time so i can shop whenever i want to and get back to work later :P

being able to wear dresses or minidresses in any cut and style to work. (this is quite important because i don't like restrictions).

having a reasonable pay which would leave me with $$ for my shopping expenditure even after paying for the condo and car instalments (just kiddin', i doubt i'd ever drive, am rather happy with the beetle bags at the mo).

having colleagues that are about the same age so we have common topics to chat about ;)

NOW WHAT KIND OF WORK IS THIS? i can't let anyone who's going to employ me in the future see this definition.
bee at 9:01 AM