Saturday, October 27, 2007

a vicious cycle: when a child is hit, he learns to hit.

been getting hit at school by a soon-to-be 4 year old boy.. and this only started really recently. i just learnt that mommy canes him.. and so perhaps that's why he thinks that hitting is a way of getting what he wants because mommy hits to get what she wants (for example, for him to be quiet or obedient) so he thinks that if he hits, he gets what he wants (he wants to not do "work" at school).

so my lesson on Friday went pretty bad, and the only reason why i can still smile is because its the weekend. there i was trying to concentrate on carrying out the lesson itself while having to catch his hands before they could hit me. and boy does he aim for the face. so while i panicked, i soon found myself at a loss for words and oh gawd i was supposed to ask him questions that he had to answer as part of the task.

seriously i felt so stressed and drained the past week. i felt like crying at work at mid-week, call it a day, quit my job and i wanted to go home as much as the kids wanted to. every night i just go straight to bed to zzz immediately after dinner. tell me about putting on weight, but i can't help it. well anyway, its not like Friday was the only day with a bad lesson, but still it is worrying when you don't know what Monday or any other day would bring.

its also getting more and more difficult to count down, with each day and week and month passing so slowly. to keep mysself sane, i have started jotting down several meetings and to-dos in my organizer (such as a visit to the dentist, the skin clinic, a pedicure, meetups with the best of friends etc). i actually keep an organiser for the sake of work events only. haha. but things like birthdays are in it too though.

i also believe in "think happy thoughts" so i keep thinking about the clothes & bags that are going to arrive in november (just in time for the lovely and obviously long-awaited hols). XD~ never mind that i haven't gotten any holiday destination yet actually.. i can just stay home and try on different clothes everyday to entertain myself~ LOL.
bee at 11:08 AM