Tuesday, April 24, 2007

some clothes are too lovely to wear

i've got quite a couple of mini dresses (some would call them tunics) and lingerie sets (especially those authentically Japanese ones) that i can't bear to wear. to the extent that i want to hang up 'em in my wardrobe and stand there to admire them everytime i open it.

i'm not sure if i should refer to it as an old habit.. but i always consider getting 2 pieces of the same item if i really love it loads so that i can bear to wear it (knowing there'll be a spare aka back-up piece waiting in the wardrobe). thing is, i don't usually get to wear the kept piece because i end up getting sick of the first before it gets worn out.

perhaps sometimes i do buy stuff for the sake of wanting to own 'em. because they're either super pretty, or super worthwhile to keep because they just look too good to be true (too cute to be true haha). a conscious effort to remind myself not to purchase something i can't picture myself wearing out isn't always one that comes naturally and consistently. (yes - some stuff only look good in pictures or photoshoots, while some stuff can only be worn to certain places).

i'm turning 20. and i still have an addiction to cute things, in addition to my addiction to shopping (or is it online-shopping? doesn't make a diff really, cos if i don't shop online, i look for stuff in the real shoppes).

while i take joy in shopping and indulging in more shopping, i actually have sleepless nights - worrying about which freaking course to take. i've turned down MOE's SNO offer, and now i'm thinking a 4-year course at NTU is going to be like going through a more studious version of my secondary school life. yuck =/ my mom used to be so enthusiastic about the trip to boston (with the wheelock college programme (saying she'll go with me for the entire month and all but now that she realises i'll be going with the rest of the cohort, she says she prefers NUS). but i don't know how long more NUS'll take to revert back to me and from what i heard, they've already decided who to take in. i hate dilemmas like these. at times like these, i feel that the lesser choices i have, the easier life'll be. honestly, its special needs ftw (For the win!) and i don't want to ever graduate from any degree and then find myself having to be a childcare teacher.

i've been asking myself as well.. why do i seem to be the only person who's thinking about what's gonna happen 2 years down the road? i don't know anyone who applied and didn't get into wheelock college, neither do i know anyone who got in and rejected it. everyone seems to be taking things so easily.. everyone seems to not mind being a childcare teacher in 2 years' time. why?
bee at 7:55 PM