Sunday, January 28, 2007

the supposed last week of school

when tomorrow comes, the last week of school begins.

surprisingly, it doesn't feel like the last week of school at all. why? because we're still packed with assignments - which means we can't just throw our books in the air on the last day. my goodness, i've actually got a major assignment to hand in 1 week after the supposed last day of school -.- so OFFICIALLY, its not the last week of school at all - look at the unofficial cos that's what matters.

i honestly dislike the way school makes us so busy.. to the extent that we see each other once every not-even-24-hours haha. and then when the hols come, we'll see each other like once a month?, then once a year. its terrible, when i think of it.. to move from extreme to extreme.

the hardest, most difficult thing to part with is always friends. i hate it sometimes. i find it a struggle to be immune to this. and it always reminds me of the time when pam went to a different sec sch, when mel migrated to nz, when ailay left ngee ann. parting with friends is just like standing at the junction of the crossroads and everyone's gonna take a different path knowingly.

it makes me wonder, for people who cry on the last day, do they still cherish their friendships even one month down the road? or are people who cry (maybe not literally all the time) after everything has settled in, after they reach home, after they've found new friendships but who can't seem to forget and miss the old (obviously treasuring the new as well), the ones who really cherish their friendships a month down the road?

at the end of all of this (basically this course and blablabla), i wanna try out something different. things that i think i would like or want to do, things of a different scope. for example, waxing. LOL. so that when i'm feeling angry, i'll have stuff to rip off other people, fast, strong and quick - so they'll feel less pain i guess. what a good thing.

well anyay, that's just one of the thoughts that crossed my mind. of course there are other things i want to do / learn.. but they were already mentioned in previous posts.

but i realise my resume is so catered to finding a job in the ECH field.. =/ so the only thing that's probably ever gonna secure me a job is a cover letter. but these days, most of everyone wants resumes to be emailed in.. so the cover letter's flung out of the window.

why am i not talking about much needed rest?

because as long as i can do the things that i really want to do, and as long as it makes mee happy, i wouldn't want to cease to rest at all.

and because there will always be a time for rest, no? the question is.. is it enough? also, mummy's planning a trip, but we don't know where to go yet.

i have a feeling i will just end up slacking again. that's one of the things that comes so naturally to me. some things just never change.
bee at 8:07 AM