Thursday, September 28, 2006

my meat, another's poison..

i tadaima-ed last evening after an afternoon spent with Ailay (in vain.. my friend's line was engaged all the way till 9pm+?!).. and i came online and started talking crazily to rebecca. haha.

i think i horrified her with my fascination with Domo-Kun.. which is what my friends call a Monster :( at least jiahui thinks he doesn't look scary. i just love the way his mouth is 24/7.. its as if the only word he can say is "ARH!". plus he looks innocently monstrous. and more importantly, he looks DUMB! XD! then i told her i'll be baking a cake.. something that she said she doesn't have the patience to carry out. but its ok, i'm impatient in nature so that's worse. and btw, some people say domokun is like chocolate shit -.-

then we went on to clothes.. HAHA. this was the worst bit of the convo. i mentioned overalls... (!!!) and a couple of bear necklaces. ok the first bear necklace (a rainbow coloured candy beads thing with a super big bear) looked like a kiddy accessory. she asked me what i could wear it with.. and i said.. "overalls?". i was laughing at her response "do you want to look like you're 5?".. and i almost rolled on the floor laughing with mine "nope, i want to look like a nut".

sounds lame. and i duno why i said that. i was in a weird mood yesterday. weird because i don't know how to describe it. it wasn't ridiculously happy, neither was it utterly upsetting. i guess i didn't know what to feel?

well but i guess people do link dressing style to mental maturity.

there's also the 2nd bear necklace.. which is an innocent robot-looking bear that has a crystallised head. its body and limbs remind me of silver toilet rolls. was tempted to get it, but i didn't know what to make of it.. so.. i tossed the idea aside.

and then i shared with her about how animistic i was when i was younger (i honestly don't remember how i got there).. like if i wanted to buy a bear.. i'd pick the one with the most pitiful, lonely face that says "please bring me home" (holes and stains are obviously NOT part of pitiful, lonely faces!). and yeah, i thought they had feelings even though they don't speak. i'd cover my caterpillar plushie with a blankie, and when my cousin sat on my doggie woggie's neck, i reached boiling point and almost fainted. LOL! sounds so hopelessly animistic. when i learnt that it was a norm for kids, it just reminded me of my younger self.

sigh i thought i had scared (and more importantly, HORRIFIED) her with whatever i said.. LOL.. but she said.. it was "just a bit negative".. i was expecting.. "it was uncute". because i couldn't figure out where the negative parts were, seriously. i don't see low self-esteem, or lack of confidence, or anything pathetic in the convo O_O apart from craziness, spontaneity and hmm. netural responses from my weird brain. hmm it makes me wonder if negative refers to differences in opinions, likings and dressing styles? hmm hmm.. differing views? she said i should go shopping with her some time.. and yeah i agreed. it would certainly be an eye opener. cos no two folks are the same.

lesson learnt: one man's meat is another man's poison.

know that we can't always change people, but we can always try to accept them =)
bee at 9:25 AM