Monday, August 21, 2006

life is a rollercoaster - just gotta ride it.

after two years, i still don't know what i can do next time, other than teaching.

if possible, i would like to stay here (in sg), but it seems that if i do, i'll probably just end up taking the "education" route.. and get stuck in it.

i don't want that to happen, but i can't turn back the clock either.

its difficult to put into words what i wish to say about this field and about learning on my part but perhaps i will do it one day when i find it easier to phrase myself and not be misunderstood.

i am sick of people who ask me if i regret this and that, and if i would go back and do what i valued, cherished, and what i wanted and always wiehd to do. point is, i can't. its gonna be another three years again.. and i honestly am not strong enough to go through it all again. not even if its the most enriching thing i'm ever gonna experience in my entire life, not even if i knew that i would learn so much more, not even if it will change me, not even if it would help me to find a holiday-job as an intern as quickly and easily as saying "ABC".

i guess at some point of time in our lives, whether or not the path we chose was a mistake or not, we just have to move on. i like to think that there's always opportunities out there. and its always a matter of choice, isn't it?

shallow as i may sound, i always believe there's no room for regret, even if a tint of it lives in us and thrives on us when we keep looking back.

so. there's no turning back. and i've always been trying to accept this.
bee at 12:27 PM