Saturday, July 15, 2006

sorry for the lag!

i wanted to update last friday.. but as everybody knows.. i am famous for procrastinating ;) and so i have left that task to many tomorrows after that.

well, i was so terirbly sick last friday that i went home after staying in the childcare for 1.5 hours. i had to get an MC before she would count in the 1.5 hours.. i seemed fine in the morning, if not for the occassional but severe pain in my tummy x_X. boo to that. and i developed a fever later on in the afternoon (only AFTER i saw a doctor). i wanted to take my temperature but the thermometer went out of batt. that was SO SMART! i think it has a brain somewhere... i also went to the toilet to let off some loose and watery stools for two whole days (fri and sat). YUCK x_X.

anyway, yesterday wasn't the perfect friday either. i did the morning shift which started at 7am. the teacher asked me to cut out some stuff for her, and while i was doing so, the principal walked in. she didn't say anything except to ask the children to keep a safe distance away from me as the scissors were sharp and all. i sensed nothing wrong until i finished cutting everything and i asked the teacher if i could cut my own learning centre stuff as well. to my surprise, she said that i couldn't do so because "the principal has arrived". then she went on and on about the principal's liking of seeing teachers walk around the classroom constantly AND frequently, OR seeing teachers sitting down with the kids and talking with them (having fruitful daily interactions, i would say). then she went on to mention something about being more "automatic", as the principal is very strict - even when it comes to writing reports about BOTH ngee ann mentees/students and the staff who work under her as well.

all this talk got me so scared i felt like i was gonna cry. it was SCARY, mind you. what if the principal had a wrong impression of me? what if she writes a BAD report about me? so i thought about the whole thing until lunch time, when i could finally air the situation out to Rily (the other schoolmate who's attached to the same centre as me). she suggested talking to the mentor, but what was I going to say? what if i was accused of telling tales? x_X.

so as usual, being the sort of person i am, i left things as they were. which may not be for my own good. T_T.

and at the request of jane, i have updated my wishlist a little. i have nothing to add, cos i've bought quite a lot of stuff lately and don't have all the cash in the world to spend.. so.. yeah. if i have too many "wants" that are way beyond my reach they don't deserve to be put in the wishlist. haha. no santa claus will come down to my place to drop a gold motorola/D&G handphone under my pillow right? LOL.

hmm. so anyway, i decided to explain a little more on a particular addition to my wishlist. it is an item that is affordable, but i am so afraid that it would go out of fashion really soon. cos things like that might just be mere crazes - like boybands, bubble tea, etc. okay, i am referring to the Hard Gay item on my list. this is the first time i'm mentioning him on my blog, and yes you should've guessed by now that I am a fan! i started out disliking him and being grossed out by everything, thinking that he's just lame and all, but he soon became funny once i watched more and more of those hard gay episodes. and HEY.. i appreciate the fact that he tries to make the world a better place. plus, he's got catchy language.. so if you haven't caught a single episode yet, please go to youtube.com and search under bakafish to get hooked!

my field supervision's coming on this week.. on the 21st of July. sad to say i have not completed a single learning centre activity. but yes - i am trying to work things out by visualising what the end products would be. and actually, i find myself rather faraway from the end actually. plus it isn't fun when you know that there's someone else who's posted to the same centre as you who sleeps at 3.30am every night to paint up 2 to 3 layers of paint on her handmade cardboard shelves. i would admit that yes - that gets me all spiked up and jittery, but still, i would prefer to rely on the centre's resources. AND i hope to be able to decorate the shelves a little (if that ever helps).

and i have decided. that from now on, children shall be known as little imps in my blog (although i know it isn't the rightest thing to say :P).

:D how sweet!
bee at 11:22 AM