Sunday, July 23, 2006

:)

i guess a smile is all i wanted to put on the "Title" part of this post.

i have passed my field supervision by Dr Loh, though not necessarily with flying colours, because once again, i am struggling with classroom management. yes, i have heard it thousands of times that that takes time and i have come to accept it. hmm anyway, she wasn't able to tell us how good or bad the pass was, but she was sure that it was a pass. it is a relief :)

btw, my field supervisor was so much friendlier than all that i have heard of her. she seemed approachable, and best of all, smiley, which helped to ease my discomfort before i began my lesson. i am thankful for that. more importantly, she gave very helpful and constructive feedback, which aided my realisation of several things. she focussed on professional development, which is definitely a part of the learning process that all of us have to go through.

sad to say, it was only then that i learnt that it was big and little, large and small. NEVER was it big and small - which was the way i was taught since i was a school going kid.

and also, Rily said she was surprised at how calm i was when my children misbehaved throughout the 2nd part of my lesson. i'm not sure if it was because they were just too excited about everything because they started taking out the numbers from my number mats that i needed for the game -.-. fyi i did music and movement with them and i loved the way the front part of the lesson went. She said it wasn't my fault that they started playing with the number mats and ripping the mats apart from each other (i even lost a part of a number!), but anyway, its over. She also said she would've carried the misbehaving child up and carried him to a chair and plonk him down right there. or she would've dragged him to it and made sure he stayed on the chair. my reply to that was that if we did that, wouldn't we be displaying "disrespect towards children"? she also said she would've lost her temper at them. she also said she'd probably scream at them or something, but to me i just felt there wasn't much of a use. every single day i see teachers doing that.. shouting across the classroom, but the kids have gotten so used to it that what they really need now is someone FIRM and loud, but not someone who loses her temper. i was at risk of developing a sore throat on Friday night, because I felt that I was really speaking at a louder volume than usual, and ahh - at least for once there were no comments about the volume of my voice. haha.

and i spent a whopping sum of $$ on my learning corners. i bought materials for dough play, as well as two little terrapins, their food and their container at a rip-off price. because of the amount i spent, i had no choice but to ask mummy for extra $$ :P doodoo helped me out with making the dough, and i can't imagine the amount of kneading he had to do! hopefully his arms were worked out though! anyway, the colours turned out to be ooh-so-fun, and all the kids just wanted to play with it. to the extent that nobody wanted to listen to the Rainbow Fish story and everyone just wanted to play at the learning corners -.- i guess for once something else outshone its glittering scales.

not forgetting my friends who have encouraged me to think positively always - to every single one of them - thanks for your support! it helped me brave through this!

now that i am just.. GLAD.. that its over, i shall embark on Project Polka: Dotted Shoes for Ailay. We saw a pair of shoes at Bata that was Black with white polka dots, and also with a ribbon attached to the front of it. It was going for slightly less than $30 and i had offered to help her to save by painting it up for her. muahaha. i also proposed that the ribbon be sewn onto the strap of those plain, white school shoes instead of simply attaching it to the body of the shoes itself. she insisted on doing the sewing by herself cos she'd feel guilty if i did all the work.. but she is a dear friend of mine - the kind that you can go to and let out all your tears.. LOL so i would never mind! oh i cannot wait to start! it is always exciting to work on these kinda things ;) oh! and i have an announcement to make! She has joined the club! Ailay is now an online-shopper! wahahaha!

not all is over though. i've got parental involvement activity kits to make.. and i haven't decided what to do (as usual -.-).. and i'm actually thinking about what to say in my assignment - yes, the one that i have to hand in tomorrow? LOL. hmm and finally! i can spend a little more time on shopping!!!! not that all the usual time spent on shopping was ever compromised. haha.

i just can't wait.. for this semester to be over. i just want a good break. but the sooner this semester ends, the sooner doodoo's NS enlistment date is. T_T. noooo!!!

LOVE!
bee
bee at 3:58 PM