Saturday, June 24, 2006

crying my heart out

i spent a good part of my term break reading a book entitled PS I Love You.

and i also spent too much of time crying about it, and wondering how the main character in the story is gonna live on after the book ends. (mind you! i cried over something that i couldn't even see - for the first time!)

basically, its about this girl whose husband had died a couple of months before she turned 30. she couldn't live without him and he knew it, so before his death he wrote 10 letters that Holly (his wife & the main char) could open - only one letter a month though. he did all sorts of sweet things - from buying a holiday for his wife & her friends to remembering small little things that needed to be done. every letter ended with PS I Love You. and almost everytime i read one of those letters i'd cry. i felt so sad for Holly's loss, and the sweeter her husband was, the worse i'd feel. The author was so good at tugging at my heartstrings!!! I was acting as if it was me who lost my husband x_X lol. but yeah, i could go on and on about this book. it is just fab. and totally feeling. it makes me want to appreciate the people around me even more. it was just SO realistic - i could picture the events in the book happening in real life. it was as if the author had been through it all.

you should've guessed by now that it's a bestseller. ;) many thanks to Cheryl for lending me the book - i am relieved that i didn't bend any part of it. LOLz. SO relieved.

and practicum has started wayyyyyy earlier than i hoped it would be :P i cherished every single day of my term break "holiday" knowing that i could be put on my deathbed anytime soon. LOL. ahh. the whole thing just makes me worry a hell lot.

well, if u stepped into the classroom, u'll understand why.

1. the space is just simply TOO HUGE. there are two group areas that are enough for 30 children AND MORE to sit in (notice, each group area is big enough for more than 30 children to sit in). and because of that, kids can run around and scream and shout like they always do. and the size of the room just magnifies it all.

2. the kids don't know how to speak softly even when told or modelled. they SCREAM and SHOUT all day long. despite providing reminders.

3. i shall skip the part about having endless energy. but do note that they all have problems getting to sleep.

4. i don't see any rules around. so quite obviously there's nothing for them to obey. i thought it was normal and COMMON for people to have basic stuff like "only one person talks at a time", but unfortunately, they live by "three people talk at any one time".

5. children: "teacher teacher! apple is where?" (directly translated from "ping guo zai na li?"

anyway, my field supervision date is set. and i'm worried like God knows what. as usual.
bee at 8:16 AM