Sunday, April 16, 2006

i've been counting down every single day.. the number of days i have left before i've got to slog it out at school.

i don't want the hols to end. not because i can choose to wake up late everyday (because my body clock does not allow it), but cos i miss the so-called freedom of wanting to go anywhere and do anything i like at anytime. (eg. playin maple at non-crowded times, shopping on the streets..)

so anyway. boo.

i'm not looking forward to the 154 hours of FP that i have to clear. its actually my only worry so far. and i am just so scared of failing that module.

plus. i came to realise that once my poly life ends.. it means that i won't have anymore BIG BREAKS.

i don't want to grow old although i feel that both physically and mentally i am old (and i haven't eve hit the big 20 yet). and basically, i've thought it through.

what i really want to do is to slack my life away (meaning that i will NOT be bound my school and work. heheh) and go onto a hot air balloon one day. :D

or at the most, do some part-time or freelancing things to try to occupy some hours of my time.

but for now.. it seems like school is the most important thing in almost every Singaporean's life - whether or not we like it.

everything is else... belongs to the category that society calls "Dreams".
bee at 4:56 AM