Saturday, September 03, 2005

i am forcing myself to believe that there are such people out there.

please note that people = more than one person.

people who actually are able to sit down and study for hours on the first day of their study break, which happens to be a Friday.

does anyone NOT know that fridays mean the start of the weekend to me?

still, i didn't go out and merely stayed at home.. surfed the webbie and slept.

yes, i slept through the entire afternoon and did nothing fruitful.

this semester might be my last one in ECH. i've been doing so badly in all my projs, my highest grade for every one of them was a C+. i am not being pessimistic. i'm being factual.

everyone who knows me well should've guessed that i will only start studying when Monday comes. even then, i won't be able to sit down for more than half an hour. - most of the time, i only sit down for 5 minutes and i'm not joking about this.

anyway, shereen's blog reminded me about this incident whereby i donated $1.50 to a guy who didn't look like he lost his wallet. well, she didn't donate to a guy who was BEGGING her mom and herself for money ($2 to take the train home to pasir ris) because they were afraid that the vulnerable them would be robbed.

some working-class-age guy approached me the MOMENT i took out my notes to read through at the bus stop. and well, silly, BLUR me at the bus stop actually asked the guy in a SUPER IRRITATED TONE (n almost diaoed him for disturbing my peace but i controlled myself:)) "how much do u nid for the bus ride?" and the idiot must have peeped into my wallet. he took the $1.50 he asked for, said thanks and i KNEW from his kind of face that there was nothing in his heart but GLEE! after a while, he left the bus stop and walked away (to god knows where) but before he did, he smiled at me and said thanks. i honestly don't think he lost his wallet. why else would he be so smiley? his politeness was definitely not a display of gratitude.

and i didn't say no to him because... it's in the morning and i'm blur.. so ask and u shall be given without hesitation.

well anyway :( i should stop being kind to such fakers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this shall be the LAST and ONLY time! they are out to cheat people like me! people like me who would feel sad for donating that $1 coin to a bogus guy instead of putting it into the ice-cream coin bank that doodoo and i share :(

$1 is probably peanuts to everyone else except me, but its not about the $$ - i just think i shouldn't have blindly donated the $$ to someone who didn't need it. it makes me seem so stupid :( argh!

ya noe, i can't believe that at 18, i'm constantly reminding myself that i am only 18. but when i was 17, i had to tell myself.. "oh dear.. i am already 17". i feel old.

i miss my doodoo birdie.
bee at 11:19 PM